Most of what you "observe" about other people only happens in your own head, as in you view other peoples' behaviors in a way that is highly innacurate. Tryptamine and Med do this also
For example, just like how you thought Alice would leave palepeach for you LOL
Maybe you should try out some medication for your delusions:) it can really help delusional people connect back with reality I highly recommend it I think it could change your life in a really positive way:)