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I don't think women can handle the emotional struggles a woman can generate for a man. Start dating guys again you bisexual.

bisexualanc :p

yep the sad mood went to full blown ptsd panic attacks 

basically i fell asleep with a lot of emotional turmoil (bad idea) and had a nightmare because i didn't take my meds (also bad idea) 

and i woke up having ptsd panic attacks from how fucked the nightmare was. it was one of the most severe nightmares i've ever had lol 

the kind that bleed over into your conscious thoughts and affect your daily life, and you know you're going insane to be so afraid of something so irrational 

but at the time it feels real. that's, ptsd. like, you're afraid and there is this sense of impending doom, it's just *really awful* 

so i'm panicking. wake up sweating. dissociated as FUCK like to the point i can't walk straight. i'm shaking and shit, dizzy like, i feel fuckin drugged and my head feels floaty. 

and my minds just going going going going a mile a minute and it's all shit i don't wanna hear 

and i'm just trying to breath... and concentrate. re-focus. re-focus, re-focus... i took my med immediately before this gotten any more out of control and just breathed for like thirty minutes or so until i finally was calm again cuz the meds started working. 

without the meds i'm like losing it. 

and my ex gf is like, "i dont want you to take the meds" and i'm like.... i.... have to.... 

i want to portray what ptsd panic attacks are like but... its very hard to but anyway i'm like dead right now 

i'm just drinking a pumpkin spice latte lol because after that shit show i deserve it and.... thankfully no longer losing my mind like i was earlier.

feel much more grounded and everything lol 

but yeah. listening to some relaxing music cuz i need it and... just gonna chill here with my candle and.... be in the quiet and the dark and feel the cold AC on mah face! cuz i need it. 

#peace and quiet 

... zen... shit. 

fuck yeah.hahah

Spatial Mind said: 

I don't think women can handle the emotional struggles a woman can generate for a man. Start dating guys again you bisexual.

But a man can from a woman? 

Ugh i fell asleep again on accident... 

i feel *so* out of it still i dont know why but i just feel extremely foggy and like tired and weak 

and i feel like drugged almost how intense the fog is 

i dont know whats going on or what this is... it feels like sleep walking or something almost i feel like dead 

ugh it’s really hard to explain but i can’t make it go away 

and I’m so tired all i can do is like sleep 

even typin this right now is like really tiring and I’m putting minimal effort into it 

my eyes are like closed I’m not even looking cuss I’m so tired 

*sigh* hopefully this goes away sometime so i can feeel sharp and with it and normal again 

but for now i feel hella hella dopey wtfr is going onnnn ugh what is this fucking hell 

*falls asleep sitting up*

Blanc said: 

Ugh i fell asleep again on accident... 

 

i feel *so* out of it still i dont know why but i just feel extremely foggy and like tired and weak 

 

and i feel like drugged almost how intense the fog is 

 

i dont know whats going on or what this is... it feels like sleep walking or something almost i feel like dead 

 

ugh it’s really hard to explain but i can’t make it go away 

and I’m so tired all i can do is like sleep 

 

even typin this right now is like really tiring and I’m putting minimal effort into it 

 

my eyes are like closed I’m not even looking cuss I’m so tired 

 

*sigh* hopefully this goes away sometime so i can feeel sharp and with it and normal again 

 

but for now i feel hella hella dopey wtfr is going onnnn ugh what is this fucking hell 

 

*falls asleep sitting up*

 Lol

okay i'm starting to come out of it now thank god... i just turned on really cold air and like started doing my makeup at my makeup counter and i think like focusing really hard on doing that pulled me out of it. 

i think it's called the dissociative void is what i was experiencing, maybe? it feels so physiological it makes me want to think anemia or blood pressure, or something like that but, it's clearly psychological because doing my eyebrows made it go away XD 

concentrating on things like art is very grounding, meticulous details etc. so it makes sense by the time i was done doing that i was like "oh, i feel better now lol" 

O.o weird. at least i'm back to normal now. felt like it was gonna last forever 

i also was drinking coffee and had this going in the background which, sounds do help me  *a lot* too. 

i've seen on dissociative channels on youtube i watch (amazing channels, really great helps you feel less alone in the weird shit ur going thru) that someone with dissociation sometimes drinks coffee a ot when they're like heavily dissociating and it grounds them?? 

and i have no idea the science behind that but, i decided to give it a try since it works for them, even though I didn't feel like doing anything or drinking anything 

i just like was forcing it down lol i was like "c'mon, wake me up" lol i felt so numb

Im harassing Sam again so thats my mood today

will it ever stop Who knows