i crossed out the people i have not flirtationed with.
TC isn't a man.
tryptamine i was friends with, then he came onto me and suggested we started dating, i didn't hit on him first but more or less just fell into a relationship because we had become so close, we didn't want things to end. if that makes sense. but then i called him about a month in and was like, "i'm a lesbian, this can't work." so we discussed the prospect of threesomes to make that work. and then we met in person, i was feeling out if this could work for me being a lesbian and all, and it didn't. sexually, physically, intimacy.
this stuff isn't really your business but, yeah. i've tried to make it work with guys in the past and it just doesn't for me... because i'm gay.
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Yes she has hit on me and other girls of the forum but she has also hit on AND ACTIVELY TRIED TO SEDUCE almost all the male members of the forum, probably even more males than females total on the forum and she is fake as fuck in more ways than one including being a fake lesbian
my opinion^
what's yours? Lol:)
i crossed out the part that isn't true
So... Blanc, what are you going to do about the whole block of cheese with a top knot and a scary penis deal?
the guy i tried dating, we got a long great and he struck me as someone i could happily spend the rest of my life with (potentially) but, once again, sexually it did not work, and i think it scared him off.
this is usually what happens with guys i try to date, because i'm not sexual or physical with them. i end up just driving them a bit nuts.
like, no one sees what goes on behind the scenes but, 10/10 times, it's like we spend 3/4ths our relationship just, fighting about sex and how the guy wants it all the time and i don't. because i'm not fuckign sexually straight.
i just, end up being really good friends with certain guys and get my hopes up, but the facts never change. like, i try to be in denial about the fact that, i'm not into men sexually. and tell myself it will happen, it will happen. but it never has...
it's okay for people to experiment, this doesn't define their sexual orientation.
it just shows how open minded and hopeful i was about becoming bisexual/wanting to convince myself i could be straight.
i wish i could be... but at the same time, i'm like very gay, and that doesn't go away.
at the end of the day, i want a girl to treat me as well as some guys do- i've never been as "taken care of" by a woman, as i have been by a guy. and this is kind of nice i guess.
but, i also can't be sexually or physically intimate with a guy, and there's not a lot of physical attraction there.
so the relationship ends up being kind of, like a cart missing it's fourth wheel it just doesn't fucking work. it ends up scraping along the ground and being so, fucking retarded and catty wampus, and you can just feel something horribly missing. and it's so uncomfortable, like nails on a chalk board for me. everytime he wants to touch me, kiss me, etc. i just always need my space.
but yeah um... everything would be way simpler and easier in my life, and my parents would be over the fucking moon, if i could just be straight. it would be lovely. but its an ideal that in *reality* cannot exist for me. and its so unfortunate.
because its like oh, he's fun and i have a connection with him. oh, and he's really nice and really likes/loves me. wow. this so so great. oh wait- oh no. he wants to do the penis thing though. what am i gonna do? i dont want the penis thing. *avoids for 10 months*
guy everyday of the relationship: penis?
me: ummmmmmmmmmmmm.... be right back i just have to... i have to go
but yeah, can you blame me for trying? or, being a little confused or in denial with myself at times? its,... its hard. the whole thing with like, being adamantly gay and having to be accepting of it and stuff... its like, yes i enjoy being gay but at the same time there are some major down sides so.. yeah... um.
hope this made sense. basically, people aren't perfectly linear in their actions and that doesn't mean that what they know they are or defined as, is fake or wrong. it just, that's just reality, that's how life happens, that's how people go about life. i tried, it didn't work. that doesn't make me, the enemy for trying, it doesn't invlaidate what i know about myself, etc.
i am gay, i fall into that category perfectly, in every possible way. but yeah, not everyone fits specific labels or wants them and that's fine too. i just um, it's an easy way to say to someone what, i'm all about and stuff. and how i am.
so yeah, i am gay. it's hard to come to terms with sometimes. not for everyone but, for me it has been.
Why is being gay better than being bi?
Less confusion
Omg do I like boys for long term or short term relationships
And do I like women for long or short term relationships
And what does this say about me and my personality
Ermergerd I'm so interesting and confusing bc who I like is a mystery
Do I like men for sex or dating, do I like women for sex or dating, why does any of this matter, what is life
Why is being gay better than being bi?
Less confusion
Omg do I like boys for long term or short term relationships
And do I like women for long or short term relationships
And what does this say about me and my personality
Ermergerd I'm so interesting and confusing bc who I like is a mystery
Do I like men for sex or dating, do I like women for sex or dating, why does any of this matter, what is life
Except she's the one literally jumping into relationships with guys???
She's bi, there is nothing wrong with being bi.
Blanc is bi
