@20:15 "she's recovering, not me."
"everyone has their addictions."
he's trying to cover it up with humor and then did his "makeup" to be silly and cover up the fact he has to pop a pill to function, and takes them with him everywhere.
if you notice everywhere he goes, he wears a robe and a backpack, slippers, sweat pants. the same tshirt.
he's depressed and uses drugs to cope, like whenever he has to put on a happy face for the camera (like he was about to have to for eugenia's interview).
i always wondered, how does he do all of this and not feel an immense amount of stress to be the happy goofy guy all the time- despite the struggles he admits having- which are more severe than he makes them out to be (downplays his depression and eating disorders with self deprecating jokes)
yet his boyfriend claims he can't get out of bed in the morning. he habitually drinks soda (like jeffree star with his red bull) and he's typically a bit of a slob.
whenever he's being caught in the background of other vloggers vlogs and he's not "on" for the camera- he's barred out on the couch and looking like he hates life.
him and jeffree do the same thing.
jeffree amps himself up and gets stoned before every video he films with people as well.
and also has an eating disorder