Colin the type of nigga who makes you feel cuddly and loving and happy and peaceful all the time:)
Okay so he's also a desirability model that allows you to be further pacified.
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Through masturbation and fixating on him, you're liable to get less done from having somewhere to transfer that energy that once was going into "learning to code".
If you're fine with that that's cool, as both of those things are ultimately about you doing what you want.