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I really like the name of your server. How'd you come up with it?
:D idk it just came to me! anyway I'm starting to adjust some things, bots can't delete messages or change nicknames now so the audit log will be more accurate because its more fun that way and colin and I will be playing with all the different bots tonight and deciding which ones to keep and any new ones we should get. this is my first server lol
fuck off no one cares
lol but you joined:p be nice blancy
fuck off no one cares
lol but you joined:p be nice blancy
sorry i was in a really bad head space and it made me cranky af
also i didnt have my coffee yesterday which makes me significantly less tolerable as a person
im sorrrrrrry ahhh
it had nothing to do with you. absolutely nothing. i don't know what was wrong with me to say something like that to u lol
i guess i assumed you'd know i didn't mean it, and it was an expression of my own apathy but idk.
basically my mom brought up some repressed memories about a week ago now? (idk lost track of time lol, could of been 3 days ago, could of been two weeks ago. it's hard for me to fucking remember.)
but, since that point, it's resulted in a domino effect of... internal shifting that hasn't been the super greatest.
it's not horrible it's like, postive but also, uncomfortable at the same time. there's good and bad in it.
some moments the shift is positive and im like "yay i remember shit!"
and then other times im like, angry or sad because of the shit i remembered.... and it's had a super bad effect on my like conscious thinking....
because it sparks up the depression i guess... which sparks up inner arguing, and it's just like a bloody fight on the inside when it gets nasty. every part of myself is tearing itself apart with inner criticism and it's hard to handle.
on top of depressive symptoms. it results in suicidal thoughts and just, all sorts of depression symptoms that you can't seem to stop.
but so that's what i mean by bad head space. i'm not just saying that as like an excuse, i was genuinely not in a right place yesterday.
ack. and when i get like that, it shows i guess in like, agrivation and stuff that seems to have come out of no where. but it's from relentless internal arguing and persistent symptoms and feeling that culminate to form, over all misery, and just it all comes from a really negative head space.
so apologies...............
u didn't deserve that :x
