I look back at everything I’ve ever said or done and think all of it was stupid like incredibly incredibly dumb
i feel this way about everything write or say or do
and about my entire being as a whole from every possible angle, light, circumstance, time, place, age, etc.
I genuinely think I am the most awkward thing to ever exist
its something I should work on, it’s improved but basically I just hate myself and am insecure so there
i admitted it.
Like I always see ways I could be better but to the point that it’s incessanf and that sounds narcissistic but it’s literally the opposite of that.
Its a ritual of self loathing that, I got super used to.
And that’s stupid to like resign yourself to a life of ritualistic self loathing.
Free youraelf feom that shit dude. It’s a shitty way to be
