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/mfw reading the title as "Hentai Grandmother". 

Delora said: 

Yesterday I was at the park with my hanai grandmother for over 5 hours at the park. We were just talking and relaxing and eating good snacks. 

But there was something she said. 

She said I am more subdued and less hyperactive ever since my best friend died. 

I had no idea. 

You have been less intense since the medication, not since the death. 

If anything the death made you more intense, which is what led to said meds. 

There are different phases in my life I have gone through and I are all these phases as different individuals than myself. For example I remember being 10-14 and I see that phase in my life as a different person entirely. 

Well, when I look at me before my best friend who yeah tbh I admit it I was pretty in love with died 

I see a different me. A younger me despite her death happening less than a year ago. 

I have spent so long reflecting on her and her family and our shared friends and how they were affected - 

I never even began to think of how it affected me.

You need to forgive yourself for having intense feelings and coping mechanisms over it, mourning is a natural process.