Here is why I am in the ER.
Do not judge me.
I am so embarrassed So I was applying ice hot to my girlfriend and I had some residue on my hands after I thought I washed it all off and I got turned on because I just covered her in the stuff while she wasn't wearing anything
Well it ended up in my- area because I accidentally got some (down there) if you know you know
And it's like a gradually growing intense ice heat flame of cold
And I'm more sensitive than other people that's part of why I don't make physical contact with someone unless we are in a relationship
Even shaking hands
Because something is wrong with me
And I keep uncontrollably vocalizing a little bit in the ER because as awkward as this is to say the pain being there in a way feels really intense and kind of-
I mean I'm not a pervert or anything it's just also really painful
So I straight up have my jacket wadded up and my face pressed into it when I'm about to "make noises" and it's humiliating
I don't like having this experience in public or in front of other people I am a very shy person in that way in real life even though I can be different online
And I wish I had two jackets because I need one to cover the involuntary sounds I keep making and one to hide that I pissed myself
I have currently locked myself in the bathroom and my partner will let me know when I have been called.
I am trembling and shaking and I feel like an idiot
