When I was really little, I lived in Hawaii, like I do now.
I used to catch ladybugs and keep them in a jar by my bed.
I used to catch geckos too.
Much to my mother's horror, I also used to catch baby birds. And once I caught an adult morning dove in a fast food cup some fucking how.
I don't know.
Looking back maybe it had something wrong with it
My youngest memories are not as detailed as my others but I remember I was diagnosed with a form of autism known as delayed developmental disorder and put into q special needs class.
When I was a in kindergarten I had a bus worker, and ADULT bus worker hit me with a backpack for trying to sing a Hawaiian song I heard that was in Hawaiian and thought it was cool. Nobody had explained any of the complexities of Hawaiian history or culture to me I mean I was in fucking kindergarten lol. I think she thought I was being racist? Imagine being so trigger happy you get pissed at an autistic child in kindergarten.
Once when I was a kid, (still kindergarten) we lived on the desert side of the island and had no grass in our backyard. And I covered the entire back yard in laundry detergent.
I also stabbed my (uncle?/cousin???) who was visiting with a.fork in the leg and got my ass beaten.
I also stood on the roof and threw glass bottles at our American bull dog umi while she ran around the yard panicked while I laughed maniacally.
And obviously got my ass beaten lol
I become more behaved when I get older but this was not that phase.
We eventually moved out of that house and the reason is because hundreds of thousands of termites came up and chased us out of the fucking house in a swarm and I remember pushing my little brother up through the window and me struggling to get out so my mom had to come grab me through the window from outside.
I used to escape from kindergarten a lot. My mom was mad at the teachers for losing me.
Although I don't blame them
Apparently I locked myself in a porta potty covered in shit and was gone all day and nobody noticed until my mom came to pick me up.
That was near a tower I used to call a "castle"
Even when I was really little my parents fought a lot.
But I also remember when my dad used to chase us around the house with his star wars space ship.
I used to call star wars "Star horse"
I would swing on the porch and sing "star horse dadada star horse"
We had a plastic turtle sandbox in the backyard.
And I used to go around the yard collecting ingredients to make "soup"
when my brother was born everyone was really happy.
But then my brother grew to be a lot more autistic than me and my mom grieved him like he died. A lot of his progress went backwards and, he lost the ability to speak as much as he did before.
I think he was like 2?
I don't remember being an only child because my mom had my brother when I was like 1 and I cannot remember being a 1 year old.
She tried putting my brother on different diets that she thought might cure his autism but nothing worked.
She tried me on these diets too but she wasn't as worried about me because my autism was less severe
I remember struggling to make friends even at this age. I literally. Used to talk. To my reflection and my shadow lol.
I had a lot of imaginary friends
The main one and probably my first was a boy ghost named "color" he was shaped like a person wearing a sheet and was rainbow. And he was also evil. For some reason.
I used to run around in a Spider-Man costume and jump on the trampoline imagining this imaginary friend.
Me and my family at one point lived with a house with an avocado tree and a mango tree in the backyard and at that time dad didn't work for the CIA yet so we were really poor, and he had a gigantic jewfro instead of being bald like he is now.
We also had a rabbit named roosty but he ran away and ate poison plants and died.
I also accidentally put on an electric dog collar and started screaming like I was dying and one of my parents ran out and got it off me.
One thing was at one school I went to we had a bunch of ladybugs in he flowering vines that grew on the fence behind the school. We used to collect them and pretend we had a ladybug pet store.
But once I got sick of the ladybugs I got really bored. I didn't see the point of the playground and I didn't understand how to play pretend as a character without a costume. I didn't understand how to like, enjoy the playground.
All I knew was that I was tired of playing here so every recess I ran away. What was I supposed to play with? Other children? Lol.
Anyway that's some of the info dump I'll put more later
