Here is the most recent:
For context I was having whole made iowaska I brewed myself.
I had a dream I was at the grocery store and I was checking out at the register my girlfriend was working as a bagger at (that is her actual new job at the local grocery store and I actually go out of my way to use her register she is at and flirt with her on days she has work with inside jokes only she understands and then give her a small piece of candy)
Anyway we were in the grocery store and in the dream I turn around and I see my dead best friend Kyra and she takes my and and takes me by the hand. And I said "it's always nice when you drop by in my dreams!"
She nodded her head and I felt lightning and in the flash she was still holding my hand
Then I said "where are we going?" And she said "to find you." And the lightning flashed even more and we disappeared and went into some kind of forest
The forest showed me as a child
In a reoccurring memory that I dream of often
I was seeing my younger self. Messy hair. Leaves stuck in it. Me covered in mud. Grass stained clothes. The dirty red bag I had next to me with a psychology book and a Gameboy on the ground all the time.
I was crying.
"Can you please be my family?"
I was talking to the trees
This wasn't just a dream. It was.a memory.
The wind picked up and the trees all swayed in unison. I looked at Kyra again to see a knowing look on her face and turned back around to see lightning strike. All around my younger self were little elf like beings. The ones that have spoken with me my entire life. And they were comforting younger me.
And they all had a look about them as if to say "yes. We will be your family."
Then Kyra pointed up and I saw a floating mountain. She started telling me we had to go all the ways a compass points to get there.
Lightning struck, and I was on this floating mountain. And on the mountain I saw a familiar bird. A gigantic rainbow bird. Like an eagle. And when I saw it lightning flashed. And I realized it had been causing the lightning in my dream.
Kyra told me I would see this bird as many times as it took me to find myself.
The bird made thunder noises and flashed some lightning and then me and Kyra were in a hospital
It was that weird ass hospital clown dream again.
A nurse came up to me and told me I had to perform a surgery on a patient and I was dressed as a clown.
So I want dancing down the hall with Kyra
When we arrived the patient had a giant knife inside them
And I ate the knife swallowing it like a sword follower.
I went from patient to patient actually, dancing and singing and clowning around. Getting the patients to let me remove whatever was hurting them.
The chaos felt good inside me as I ate the things that bothered them and the more I ate the more I was able to help more and more severely hurt patients.
And then I saw my teacher. "I don't take clowns very seriously." He said.
He was one of the patients in the worst shape. And he was bleeding black blood everywhere.
"I won't want help." He said.
He was repeatedly stabbing himself in the stomach while a tall shadow behind him was screaming insults at him. I somehow knew this shadow represented his parental figure.
I tried to take his knife from his hand. And Kyra told me not to help people without consent.
He stabbed me as I tried taking it again "stay away from me!" He jeered angrily
I was confused. I was so used to being able to help people feel better. Why was this one any different?
I felt an overwhelming love for him and grief for what was happening
I tried again to take the knife
But he jumped on top of me and started stabbing over and over and over
"Why are your emotions so strong?!' he kept screaming at me
Kyra stood there without any expression on her face while she watched the scene
And then I woke up