Like I have been hearing them for years and shit but it was usually minimal so I thought it was normal but now I'm on meds because they are no longer minimal ever since I found out my best friend died via suicide this week and I went to the ward
But they should eventually go away and everything should go back to normal right like
I keep having to fucking check what's real it's exhausting
I feel like a loser
I can't do anything easily
I'm so damn tired
(Edit: this is me expressing my experience and how I feel and has nothing to do with turncoat nor am I judging her)
That's not even all of it I'm just embarrassed to discuss everything I'm struggling with.
It's kind of my fault for having a suppressed crush on my best friend despite having a girlfriend and now all the feelings are surfacing