I realized I don't want to spend the rest of my in front of a computer.
Sure, it's fun to solve complex problems and create cool things, but it's no way as fulfilling as connecting and having fun with people and exploring the world.
I want to go out, do crazy things, meet girls, party, take risks, do drugs, live and love.
All my life I've felt an absence of belonging and love, from my family, from my peers, from myself, from life, from everything.
I've been repressed from doing what I want in life thru isolation by family and abuse which made me into an introverted and closed up person. I need to open up to people, banter, have fun with them, love, etc.
I envision myself travelling thru a beach town selling rugs from door to door and meeting girls, rolling on molly with them in the club, taking em to the hotel, going on a mountain trip with em etc
I've been wasting my life for too long and I won't anymore.
