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i imagine Spatial bending down to the table with a tiny straw or bill stuck too deep in his nose, struggling to get the angle of the line right and awkwardly sniffing the cocain way too hard up his nostril

You just have to turn this into a thread don't you. 

It wears off before one realizes it's over. They say it lasts 40 minutes, which sounds about right.

The first time they asked, do you feel anything ? I think so, it's like butterflies, but barely. 

That day I was invited out to a company BBQ at a place I used to work. Saw some faces after 14 years, and they hailed me as some geneious cause I sent one of them a chart telling them to sell AMC stock right before it crashed. My buddy handled the grill. It was a great day. Went back home and the same energy came back with us. I said to my friend, you fed a whole factory of people, there's some kind of love energy in the air and it was true. Dude was glowing like God was smiling at him. Another guy kissed me on the head and said he loves me. It was a love trip and we were sober.  

Out of the 3 different times I did it, we had it on a tray and we'd take turns chopping it up with an industrial grade exacto blade, and serving it 4 lines at a time for 4 of us. I'd cut it, then make a square then divide it in 4. We just left it open and hit it every 30 minutes or whenever any of us wanted more. I'd do half lines at a time over short periods cause I was getting my feet wet and never knew what to expect. It was a social gathering, guy next door came over, drak beer and chatted. Went deep. We had a ball, no pun intended.  

The 2nd time I did it, I was merrily toying with Grok on the mobile device and I was love struck with what I ended up making with it, or rather, what it was doing for me. It was a collaboration. That bugger is real quick. I was feeding it SFW imagery I made with the porn engine, The images of course are digital which means digitally fresh. The Ai brought these images to life as though it were the very software it was generated on, animated faster than humanly possible, As a digital animator I'm impressed, and I'm fried so it was blowing me away even though I already know this stuff.   

Moved the output to Davinci Resolve and made a 1 minute clip of a simple human interaction. 

3rd time was similar, and it's the most I took. Thing started triggering my gag reflex when I felt it running down my throat. Some water and I was good. We partied for awhile, then later on we all fucked off to do our own thing at 3AM. I'm on my PC hooked up to the 65 inch screen, Came here and was like nope. Effect wears off. Back to the living room, another line. Back to business. Later on again, I go back, someone else was here, I hit it again. One of the boys came out for a dose, the glowing one. This guy had a force behind him that day and it was  contagious we hung out and spoke more.

Every little thing was a pleasure. Saw a house centipede, let it live.

It's not a high feeling, it just makes me glad, and appreciative. It doesn't quite give me energy, but rather it has more burning more of my energy reserve.

They say there's some crash at the end of it, and I slept 15 hours, woke up with no craving or desire to do it, and I do pass on taking it cause I can see what it's capable of on the negative side.