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I deep down believe it’s not enough to just *be*


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which is unrelated to self esteem or confidence as I lack neither, it’s more of a deeply held belief tied to self worth - As such I have an unsatiable drive for self improvement and growth, snd productivity which expresses itself in obsessive health, exercise and career growth at the expense of mental health - ironically something I now obsessively meditate for which leads to inner peace and an understanding of healthy outlets of what may be an unchangeable part of my unconscious identity. 

what makes you move ahead the way you do?

It’s okay xadem
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That lack of comfort in being as you are is the human condition. By design, when we become too comfortable with something we find a distaste in it. 

It's why people on the autism spectrum are worthy of envy. 

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Do you Xadem? You strike me as the class clown type. 🤡

You don't take yourself seriously. It's rather pleasant to discover if you're someone noteworthy. What's your big achievement?

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Jada said: 

Do you Xadem? You strike me as the class clown type. 🤡

You don't take yourself seriously. It's rather pleasant to discover if you're someone noteworthy. What's your big achievement?

 You strike me as an Epstein's island type.

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I hate just being. I drive myself insane, yet I am rotmaxxing. Damned in this loop, but I know I can get out. I know I can get out I know I can get the fuck out. 

Everyone is telling me I am funny, and fucking crazy and would make a great entertainer. Not to say I would do such, because while I love the concept of being an influencer, to me, I feel as if there is little actual substance. Or at least that's the voice that wants me to pursue anything that would make me suffer and give me the skills necessary to conquer. Though, albeit... Influencer.... Lots of fans, make waves. Inspire. Get money to learn skills on MY TIME. 

but IDK I don't think I could make it, I am too crazy, I would just end up a LOLCOW but I mean, I guess there is Money in that but I don't care about money. I think I will just go get blown up by a drone at this point. If I survive, then I will strive to be a Warlord, and maybe carve out my own slice of land and people :DDDDDD

I just hope in America's Cuh- Cuh- Cuh- Cuh- Case that ACP that I oh so want to have faith in, will succeed otherwise it's the dark age and if I don't die like a complete fucktard which is likely to happen, oh boy we're in for an absurdist nightmare realm of nazi mutants skewered on stakes like Vlad the Not so tame Impala. and retarded fat dead pedophile skin rugs. 

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Chaotik said: 

I hate just being. I drive myself insane, yet I am rotmaxxing.

Man people will legit take anything and add '-maxxing' to it now. 

Damned in this loop, but I know I can get out. I know I can get out I know I can get the fuck out. 

Part of this loop is your noticing it over and over though. 

Everyone is telling me I am funny, and fucking crazy and would make a great entertainer.

...everyone? 

Not to say I would do such, because while I love the concept of being an influencer, to me, I feel as if there is little actual substance. Or at least that's the voice that wants me to pursue anything that would make me suffer and give me the skills necessary to conquer. Though, albeit... Influencer.... Lots of fans, make waves. Inspire. Get money to learn skills on MY TIME. 

Influencer doesn't seem like something for you in particular, it takes a lot of hard work if you're not bot farming it. 

You might want to shoot not-quite-so-high. 

 
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Pee pee poo poo tie a shoe

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Meaningful struggle is where it’s at 

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