Post traumatic stress disorder is like your mind is your biggest bully and it never fucks off. It's like your own mind has a mind of its own and attacks you. It's like one of your body parts is under a spell to destroy you but that part of your body is your brain. And you just feel like a fucking loser because you try to conquer this but you are trapped inside your own mind unable to realize your full potential because no matter how mentally capable or intelligent others around you in your life may claim you are, you are still always that much crazier and that much more broken. All praises of "wow you have so much potential! You are so good at XYZ you are so blah blah blah!" Is just a reminder of how limited you really are.