Does autism feel cringe though, or are they numb enough to it to repeat it indefinitely?
I think they get it on a delay, later down the road when they have more context. Though I can think of some stoic examples of autism, like a guy when leaving a banking internship being asked if he will miss anyone, and giving a flat "no".
You’ve got to be able to put that energy toward things that are beneficial. It was wrong that this teacher in a sense promised you more than they could give, but also it’s weird for you to act like a scorned lover over it. You should be trying to solve for how to find and build long-term friendships rather than harassing a guy who had inappropriate/fuzzy boundaries with you. Aside from potentially causing future problems at the school, this all is probably going to make some cringe memories.
He would scream at me in front of the entire class. Also to compare it to what you compared it to is 💀
Ugh no it's not like that at all oh God fuck that
I know it's not, that's just how some would make sense of you suddenly becoming a cyberterrorist. The whole situation sucks, but don't be up in this guy's emails being all "wtf dude" as if he's going to reply: "Wow. No, I never thought of it that way until now. I really am sorry, I take it all back." You're a young adult who was under his tutelage...it would be in his best interest to pretend he never crossed a boundary in the first place...rather than reply to your emails and incriminate himself/possibly make the situation worse with you somehow.
The guy's real concern is probably what people are work are thinking of him & all of this. At any rate, contacting a teacher like this out of the classroom is a bit unhinged, and that could harm your chances at returning to this school.