Damn Quin, maybe try a shelter instead of asking Internet strangers for a place to crash.
I don’t qualify for the ones over here that they say are safe for children, and the ones I do qualify for are not safe for children, so they say. Honestly, I just don’t want to stay with my parents because every time I’ve done something crazy with people on here, it was to escape them. The Jim incident was to die so I could escape, and the Chapo thing was to escape from them as well and when it went bad with him, I tried to kill myself instead of going back to them.
I’m only insane when I stay with them because they say the most evil things to me and constantly ask what’s wrong with me and criticize me for my baby not listening to me, ever since she was born. She’s now three, so when she didn’t even know a single word, they would yell at me because she didn’t follow directions. On top of that, they treat me like a maid around the house, on top of forcing me to work for twelve hours a day, not including commute time, and that’s without paying me.
They literally warned my sister not to let me stay with her because they said it was so terrible living with me and then when I said that’s why I don’t want to stay with them now, they lied and said they didn’t say that. If all of that wasn’t enough, they say they love God, but forbid me from talking about Him.
All of this wouldn’t be so bad if I were like my sister, who stands up for herself, but I don’t say anything and just let them attack me all day, every day, and then I try my best to get away any way that I can, which is why I used to come here to get any means of escaping and why I came here to find anyone who would let me stay with them this time.
It sounds risky to stay with anyone random, but I know I’ll probably try to kill myself again because it literally happens every time, and it started when I was 13. I have been trying to die to escape them ever since then, whenever I have to live with them for more than a week.
The last time I stayed was for a few days and I almost died then too. I just think it’s safer to live anywhere but there, if I want to continue living and thus, taking care of my baby. Not to mention the fact that they said to kill her before she was born, which is probably why they hate both of us so much, but anyway, that’s why I’m almost literally begging everyone to let me stay with them.
I do think I’m supposed to stay with them though because I may have heard it from God, which would make sense if I have to forgive everyone and possibly help them love God more. I’m up for it, but don’t be surprised if I’m back here trying to die again soon.