Turncoat said: 
MedAugust:
I’m about to buy a house and I don’t know which is more important having the environment you want or being with the persons you want
As if I have a choice
I don’t want to buy an apartment though
I’m kind of set for life
Dont tell anyone I said this but I screwed up so badly
I shouldn’t go around saying it cuz then I got guys going you know she’s a spectacular failure
And I sort of feel that way but it’s not entirely true
But environment is important
I guess I’m a feminist only in that I don’t want to leave all to risk for some guy to go on his journey only
Can’t do that exactly anymore
I have to ensure that I am living the life I want first
I think I did this to myself with the drugs early on
I swear the connections in what I’m saying are there but it may not all hit the page
I could have finished med school, and/of gotten married, had a kid, lived in a nice place
I can still get married have a kid live in a nice place I can go to school if I want
Will I be happy if I don’t have a career
Will I find love
I’m scared of what’s coming I don’t do a good job of hiding it
I have people tell me things
I understand people’s pain
Frequently my psychiatrists tell me what their pain points are
I’m so mad that I lost so many photos every time I get “sick” I throw out photos and momentos

"Sick" eh? 

 I don't understand why she doesn't just go back to school, she definitely has the money. Not even judging on this one just genuinely curious what the reasons might be