outing myself as nonbinary gender (the "She" username does not fit anymore lol) ultimately.... integrating and balancing both my feminine energies and masculine energies are important for wholeness/integrity and transcending duality, which has been a goal of mine for a while
I feel sad, and I miss and might miss the traditional unintegrated female gender role in the future, but "She" is not who I identify as anymore.... I am feeling as well as sadness, feelings of freedom and safety/wholeness and stability within myself as well as some fear