Sociopath Community

Allure said: 

where will you go?

 /implying we only participate with one community

I would be quite sad, like that'd suck, but I'd probably keep contact with people from here to see where they end up, and maybe tag along even, if not becoming more involved in places I already go. 

To Lunas SC.

I'd jump on that chance to make a new sc. 

Remember I want to run sc. 

Someday.

But not today.

But someday...

Why? 

To prove that people were wrong about me.

To be such a good leader, that people are like "wow delora was actually not an idiot she's just as smart as any one of us!"

I will go above and beyond to prove a point. 

I will go above and beyond even more to prove myself.

Because no one has ever believed in me on anything because I'm "different" but I believe in myself. I believe in myself because no one else will and no one else has. 

And even though the more I accomplish right now the more it's ignored I keep pushing.

I will make sure I was grossly underestimated. I am driven by rejection of the judgment I have been unfairly given in every single thing I do. You would be surprised how much of me is driven by that. 

And everyone will say WOW DELORA YOU ARE SO NORMALLY FUNCTIONING AND YOUR BRAIN DAMAGE AND AUTISM DID NOT INHIBIT YOUR ABILITY TO DO THINGS AT ALL YOU ARE ACCEPTED INTO HUMANITY GOD LOVES YOU JUST LIKE ANYONE ELSE! LETS BE A FAMILY AGAIN JUST LIKE YOU ALWAYS WANTED I ACCEPT YOU! 

someday. 

But not today.

I have won awards. I have been famous for a moment. I have auditioned for American idol and have been assessed as advanced in certain types of intelligence in tests my school gave me. I have won art contests and learned to sing opera and done live performances. I saved myself for marriage. I have studied makeup to make it just right. And I do exercises to be healthy pretty and smart and eat healthy for that reason to. I take good care of my disabled family members. I do community service, and I'm always there for my best friend. I have saved two lives and I know the entire bible like the back of my hand. I bought land in Hawaii. I moved to Hawaii.

But it's not enough. It's never enough. 

I will make people look at me. I will dress in the prettiest clothes I can find and sing the prettiest songs I can sing and learn every fact I can from every book in the damn library. I will become a better artist. I will hike mountains. I will own sc.

And maybe, just maybe someday

It will be enough?

I work so fucking hard to make the best posts on sc. My mind races with ideas. 

And then I'm told oh, they have to be put away in a fucking folder. 

Why? I tried to hard to make them interesting. I started some of the best sc drama. I worked really really hard. Why? I did what I was supposed to why did it not work? I got creative with topic after topic and joke after joke and it wasn't fucking good enough. 

Is it ever enough?

Was I stunted by solitary confinement? 

No. I believe in myself. I always will. 

I will never stop believing in myself and pushing myself with everything in me. Ever. 

I will improve every day. Without exception. I must become perfect. 

Good said: 

To Lunas SC.

 nope, you keep it lol

I bet if I were leader of this place, Jim would return and post more CP

if you let it die, then Delora or some1 else is gonna have to host it lol

puppygirl said: 

Good said: 

To Lunas SC.

 nope, you keep it lol

I bet if I were leader of this place, Jim would return and post more CP

if you let it die, then Delora or some1 else is gonna have to host it lol

What code should I start learning to prepare for if this sc one day falls?

puppygirl said: 

Good said: 

To Lunas SC.

 nope, you keep it lol

I bet if I were leader of this place, Jim would return and post more CP

if you let it die, then Delora or some1 else is gonna have to host it lol

 You said ur gona make another forum, I just referred to it as SC.

the fact you are even entertaining the thought makes me think you actually could let sc die

if you are thinking of that, then give fair warning so someone can build a replacement

i dont want to run a place called sociopath community amymore. it's too big a liability. I don't want to risk legal issues

delora could do it though since she seems keen to prove herself

she would just need to purchase sociopath-community.com

https://sc3.boards.net/user

This is the backup if sc dies.

puppygirl said: 

the fact you are even entertaining the thought makes me think you actually could let sc die

if you are thinking of that, then give fair warning so someone can build a replacement

i dont want to run a place called sociopath community amymore. it's too big a liability. I don't want to risk legal issues

delora could do it though since she seems keen to prove herself

she would just need to purchase sociopath-community.com

 How much would I have to pay? I offered to buy it from good. He said he will never sell it to me.