soo much abuse happened, and I mean soo much and I was unwillingly enabling it because I did not know any better
and now I have boundaries, but I have taken it to the extreme where my anger has driven me to release almost all human desires and they are being released even as we speak
I do not trust people, and I only feel safe trusting myself because of the abuse that I experienced
I am not really willing to to settle into being less extreme about it and my intentions remain to continue releasing everything that is preventing me from feeling peace in my heart at all times and that means surrendering so much of the "standard normal human life experience" but like I am done- I think that I have seen enough and do not want to participate much in it anymore. yeah there is still that part in me that is like "but a relationship with Michael...." but that is not even enough to stop me anymore
I'm done, I'm just- I am done. I went through too much personal hell and now I am done
I do not even need any sort of shaman mentor or healer, I have myself and I have enough wisdom and understanding now to come up with my own solutions and this has been my goal for a very long time- to be free and to not have to trust other people anymore because I am self-reliant
I am free, and I am done trusting other people 🤍🕊