Sociopath Community

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shamanqueen:
I just kissed him in my imagination while I was half sleeping
it was like an innocent love kiss though not like an I want something from you kiss
because I am happily single
rather be single than a prisoner
anyway
shamanqueen: I am amazing and I love myself and I am not dependent on other people's opinions and I never will be and so it is thank you 😊😇
also it was an accidental kiss because I did not intentionally dream about kissing him
wtf why did I kiss him
ew I wonder what his breqth tastes like
eww he eats soooooooo much food lol and all the drugs and alcohol
oh gosh he prob has the worst breath ever mine is not the best either because of coffee and cigarettes which
I both need to quit but the native americans smoke for spiritual reasons soo do I really need to quit that is what I keep telling myself
 looking into his eyes would be like looking into the abyss of hell
jk he seems like a good person just very lost
everyone is a good person but very lost unttil they learn so many lessons that they do not reincarnate on earth or something
will micheeeeeal and I date prob
ahould we no eww
worst idea
we should not date ever that was the worst idea
neutralize neutralize lol
EWW no that was a bad dream
I AM AWAKE NOW LOL
neutralize EVERYTHING
 MICHAEL COME HERE YOU MUST BE NEUTERED
NEUTRALIZED* :p
🤭😇
sorry that was mean
don't be neutered that is unhealthy
I don't want that for you
neutralized yeah though

Turncoat:
The obsession is real.

shamanqueen:
unfortunately not
It has been transcended, scarily
I am not even human anymore I am like an angel
too transcended above base violent human stuff
I mean yes I am in a human body, but I feel more like an angel
EXCEPT for my anger at my previous lack of boundaries up until the last couple months being taken advantage of all of my life
leading to unwillingly enabling abusive behavior out of not knowing any better
my anger is seething, raging and boiling
I feel like a volcano about to erput
this anger has to be released
somehow, someway I will make progress on releasing my anger today because cannot be unforgiving and expect to free myself completely from this human bonds by the end of this lifetime and not having to reincarnate can I?
my angelic seeming motives are actually ulterior, as I wish to never have to incarnate as a human being ever again
I wish to be free once and for all. unless I was an angel before I incarnated, because if I was then I will probably come back again and again to help humanity ascend who knows lol
but my plan right now is to not
this anger is killing me. I think that even my other shaman mentor wants to abandon me at this point and the first one cursed me so I do not trust her anymore obviously
like, it upsets people that I refuse to depend on and trust them fully. it upsets people that I see many different perspectives. but mostly it upsets people that I am angry deep down and I blame them sometimes and they can sense it
I start feeling very- well either fix it or deal with it because I do not know how to make it go away, but that ends today.
I *do* know how to make it go away the answers are within me plus I can ask for prayers and do some specific meditations on releasing anger
I am not a helpless confused child anymore, I know the way.
shamanqueen knows the darn way or at least she should and so she is going to because this is just meant to happen kk this is my destiny
to be peaceful internally even at the deepest deepest depths of me
and so it is thank you
🤍🕊

FOTS:
Turq can you shut the fuck up
you dont know shit, sit the fuck down and shut up
look at the fucking chat history, its 80% you spamming bullshit

shamanqueen:
do not speak to me, you are a lower lifeform and I am transcended far above you and probably a billion times more intelligent
and you know this, and now you are raging because you are envious
It is what it is 🤷‍♀️
I see through you, moron.

FOTS:
My life is amazing, bc unlike you im not a delusional maniac. raging? thats rich. the only emotion i show for you is pity bc you will never be well
you are sick in the head. and there is no helping you

shamanqueen:
I apologize for calling you a moron because I am above that type of behavior these days, and I hope that you ascend
I am very confident in myself and doing mentally well thank you, other than my present anger

FOTS:
no you are not, youre a hypocrite. burn in hell you bitch

shamanqueen:
YES I AM I JUST NEED TO RELEASE MY ANGER

FOTS:
you will never find salvation or inner peacce

shamanqueen:
THEN I WILL BE FINE SERIOUSLY OH MY GOSH I KNOW MY OWN NEEDS MENTALLY AND OTHERWISE THANK YOU
lol I already have

FOTS:
you are just projecting those ideas into the air hoping ppl will believe you

shamanqueen:
I just want inner peace like aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaall of the time now

FOTS:
but nobody believes you
you want it? that is bc you dont have it, if you had it you wouldve said so

shamanqueen:
if I hoped that people on this forum would believe me, I would read and respond to their posts lol
I have it all the time, but can have other emotions going on at the same time that distract me from it
and I am annoyed by the distractions because the inner peace feels so amazing
I have nothing to prove to anyone I am self partnered
that means self reliant and I only have to answer to myself and prove stuff to myself
I only post on this forum to leave notes for people to look back on in the future when they realize that they are misersble and maybe want to feel better
if that happens
I post for the highest good of humanity to learn from my failures and successes
🤷‍♀️😮

FOTS:
ah i feel something coming over me! i think im being taken over by an angel and she is trying to speak to me!
your life is a tumultuous struggle of lies and tragedy. You scramble for sense and piece of mind from false prophets and false ideologies. For this you will burn in hell. Take heed of where you walk next.

shamanqueen:
lol who has duckduckgo as their avatar I cannot see names on this phone
I only believe in experiencing inner hell

FOTS:
wow turq, an angel just possessed me to speak to you

shamanqueen:
being a human that has not transcended into peace was hell for me which is why I transcended

FOTS:
that angel was talking to you turq, sounds like bad news bears

shamanqueen:
that is not how shamanism works Lmao.
but kk.
and btw angels only ever encourage and never condemn
you should learn from them
they are very loving
lol who is shamanking
is that my pootie or is it waltz or someone
don't be my pootie because I will fall in love and my heart will melt and I'll
idk
be emotional and stuff lol :p
guys if it's my pootie idk what I'm going to do
maybe I'll start crying idk

Delora:
emily an angel has possesed me and told me to tell you to eat healthier do more community service get some irl friends and go outside
says you dont eat enough vegetables.
says some examples of nice hobbies you could get include, art, gardening, and reading
(spooky music starts playing)
(gets unpossessed)
woah that was strange emily you must be really special for an angel to do that you should listen to it's advice.

shamanqueen:
of happiness lol
I gave up
I am still seeking peace first though I desire to feel peaceful as much as possible
I told my shaman mentor about what was going on and he nearly disowned me he made me feel like I was doing something wrong for not giving up so I gave up
but I also convinced him to give trying to work with you a chance it was just really risky
I still give up though lol
I just want to focus on my own healing rn
like for example I was feeling sick my anger was making me feel sick so now I have to try to release it all
healing is not easy it is a fulltime job
oh sweet pootie I still have to move on, how can I go on believing I cannot
too many times too many chances
too much desiring to save the world when I can only save myself I can only control myself and even that is a difficult task of it's own
tell me how to believe I do not know how to believe in us anymore
it was too long without you
and now I am used to it

shamanqueen:
I love being self partnered way more and your unprocessed anger just fuels mine
It's over you have too many unhealthy toxic beliefs for me
you are a sick, sick shallow man
as far as I know

Turncoat:
We know.

shamanqueen:
as far as what you choose to show to the world
choose healthy beliefs on your own
believe in your own recovery on your own

Turncoat:
We do.
Like everyone does that.
Unless trying to self-harm.

shamanqueen:
I am not your girlfriend or wife or any of those things
Yeah no.
all of you here are extremely self harmful
I see it every day

Turncoat:
They are holding onto beliefs that have carried them this far.
To them it is how they keep the course, be healthy as their own flavor.

shamanqueen:
this is a toxic pit of unhealthiness
LOL
carried them to a toxic disgraceful pit of unhealthiness ?
I do not approve, do better

Turncoat:
It isn't self-harm as much as you seem to see it that way.

shamanqueen:
Yes it is
I see it for exactly what it is
I do not care at all

Turncoat:
Lol, people here do not approve of your methods either though.
Should you change for us?

shamanqueen: 
No and I never would
I never read anyone here's threads or posts because too toxic

Turncoat:
Then why should others change for you?
Tolerance is the path, once you can tolerate how other people are you can then see their gifts.
Lol how would you know it's toxic if you don't read it? ^_^

shamanqueen:
If you want to call it healthy behavior then it needs to look and act like healthy behavior
I used to read it and stopped because it is all garbage

Turncoat:
What makes it garbage?

shamanqueen:
haven't read it in probably over a year only my own posts except rare occasions

Turncoat:
Why though?
Too weak to read some mere mortal messages?
Drags you down too far? Influences you too much?

shamanqueen:
because there is so much more beautiful stuff out there to read
if you really want to know

Turncoat:
I personally find a lot of value in seeing how other people live their lives unlike myself, it works as a point of reference, a comparison.
This environment also (typically) endorses freedom of expression.

shamanqueen:
seek beauty and truth and light, not a toxic disgraceful pit
that is what I am doing
have standards, values morals

Turncoat:
What makes it toxic and disgraceful though?
It seems to work for them.

shamanqueen:
Turncoat include yourself like pretty much everyone here is depressed and wants to kill themselves
unlike myself
now goodbye

Turncoat:
Not everyone what?
It's a few people isn't it?
At most maybe a moment they get past, most people have a scare at least once, at *least*.