today's existential discussion
04:22 shamanqueen: my pootie
04:22 shamanqueen: k no stop
04:22 shamanqueen: stop this cannot happen
04:22 shamanqueen: oh mt gosh what the frick do I have left to heal to stop thinking about him lol
04:23 shamanqueen: I hope that it happens soon
04:23 shamanqueen: I should probably tell my shaman mentor
04:23 shamanqueen: my*
04:24 shamanqueen: why am I so obsessed with him
04:33 shamanqueen: I shall ask my shaman mentor if my shark pootie can be saved and that will settle it once and for all
04:34 shamanqueen: otherwise this little sea turtle is swimming far away
05:22 Blanc: ok
05:23 Blanc: fuck
05:40 Blanc: why am i so disorganized dear fuck
05:40 Blanc: wait- its conspiracy time.
05:41 Blanc: *facetious chimes in the background play melodically*
05:42 Blanc: whaat if adhd is a degrading neurological disease that worsens over time?
05:48 shamanqueen: but can someone fully disconnected from their source light choose to seek healing
05:48 shamanqueen: this is my concern blanc
05:49 shamanqueen: because I tried to call shark pootie's highest self to me and instead it was a bunch of angry demons
05:49 shamanqueen: this was a couple weeks ago, but Logan Paul had a highest self
05:49 Blanc: i dont know who shark pootie is
05:49 shamanqueen: I did a peaceful releasing ritual with both of them or tried to with Michael
05:50 Blanc: are you a man btw
05:50 shamanqueen: lol no
05:50 Blanc: hehe
05:50 shamanqueen: but what does it mean when someone's highest self manifests as a bunch of angry demons lol ?
05:50 Blanc: okay shaman powers seem cool
05:51 shamanqueen: is it spiritual guarding of his highest self, or like is he possessed to the point that he has no connection to his highest self
05:51 shamanqueen: yes it is fun for me, I love being able to do stuff inuitively and creatively and like yeah
05:52 shamanqueen: I shall find out soon about the answer to this question
05:56 Blanc: hello, i'ts me
05:57 Blanc: i have no idea what any of that means butm it sounds nice
05:57 Blanc: guess i'll get reincarnated until i figure it out and ascend to the uh......
05:59 Blanc: im very mentally and spiritually confused but at least i have forgiveness for myself over that. its like, its ok if you dont have it all figured out
05:59 Blanc: its ok if u haven't got it all right.
05:59 Blanc: its not ur fault either way, whether you do or dont... not, under ur control necessarily entirely it just either is or isn't
06:00 Blanc: so i accept what is, and accept what isn't, and just let it be what it is
06:01 Blanc: i feel like, *random adhd topic change* i used to hang out with people and like i enjoyed time with them, but if they also wren't aligned with like a goal or perrogative or desire of mine, then i thought i shouldn't hang out with them because it was
06:01 Blanc: pointless
06:02 Blanc: its so nice to be able to admit things that you would otherwise be judged or 'misunderstood' for saying elsewhere lol or it would just cause some shit show ... there's an app for this its call uh..... fuck i forgot the name but theres apps for this
06:03 Blanc: where people just hang out and have conversations
06:04 Blanc: i am torn between like two worlds
