so I am just stopping to appreciate how far that I have come from where I've been- I mean I did a 180 practically, that is a lot for anyone to do especially over a little less than a couple of years I- wow, yeah that is some amazing progress but I still have some internal stuff from my past left to resolve like I am genuinely grateful and I know that I am doing everything right I have shamanic experts helping me and I have set all of my affirmations to go time for understanding my oneness with source energy and love and all that is, and yet I am still struggling even though I am ready and willing to leave everything that i ever knew behind if I have to