As I observe the current state of affairs on SC as it pertains to me; my relationship with the community, my attitude towards them, how many friends and enemies I have... and compare them to how they were last fall, I must conclusively admit that is is objectively worse in every aspect. I won't play the blame game here, but look onto the cause and effect within myself and the result on my reputation.
And so, there was me in fall 2018; I must admit I had far more free time. I had not met delora yet, I was a shut-in who did nothing but study, and I was incredibly bored but over-active in my mind and in need of some way to channel my rushing thoughts, I turned to SC to exhibit them in concise, orgnanized, and creative ways. This resulted in massive success; high views, lots of attention, positive feedback from other users. Everybody commented in my threads, every single one was a smash hit, and almost everyone had something terrific to say about me. Then came the senate race....
I had no idea how serious some were taking the senate. I'll admit I made a game out of it and this allowed me to conduct a choreographed and over the top campaign that really hooked people in and racked up the views. Sadly, this resulted in me making enemies and actual hurt feelings when I went too far against Inq and MissC, and even risked my relationship with delora. But overall things were going alright after this. Until..... the delora-cx stream.
The intense mockery I recieved both here and on youtube during that time broke me, and caused me to react with rage and declare certain people on SC enemies. The way I handled that situation definitely damaged my pristine reputation.
Then, delora came to see me and began streaming when.....
That video about her got made.... and I was PISSED.
And I won't lie, my wrath consumed me and consequently I began a crusade against everyone on SC that made so many enemies and caused so much shit that it destroyes my reputation and made most people forget about the good aspects of me. I never quite shook that reputation and as I found myself struggling to be liked again, my frustration further caused me to react against critics and further sink my character into the ocean.
Couple this difficulty coping with not being liked like I once did with a raging case of writer's block, and you have yourself a proper case of a fall from grace...
and here we are today.
Not saying some of the things I say are not my real thoughts, I do think some sects of SC have group mentality, but I am saying that my waging war against it may have been brought on by frustration at various things.
