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I am taking a (permanent ?) break from giving of myself to narcissists


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soo, I have been giving and giving of myself to narcissists for as long as I can remember-  and my soul desires a nice long refreshing and possibly permanent break from doing this  the thing with narcissisism is that most people who have this disorder do not even want to recognize that it is an Illness and that it would be beneficial to recover from it and sacrificing their egos is probably too big of a risk for most of them  someone else can work with them but I want to work with people who desire to change and will put in the work and make whatever sacrifices necessary-  an equal energy exchange

 

so that means leaving this community too. I do see all of your issues but I also see a lot of closed offness at being willing to do whatever it takes to genuinely recover and I do not desire to waste any more of my time and energy because there is not an equal energy exchange

 

goodbye

 

 

last edit on 3/1/2023 6:34:58 PM
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y'all would be better off with someone like Turncoat playing therapist  (fake healer because does not genuinely help people heal from root causes of trauma because he has not even healed from his own aka a traditional therapist) who would tell you that things are pretty close to being stuck the way that they are and that you should not expect much healing and recovery to happen any time soon because that gives all of you an excuse to carry on with narcissistic behaviors

 

 

last edit on 3/1/2023 6:35:30 PM
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You seem to be distancing yourself while declaring yourself the only one to possess knowledge, again. At this point you are even regressing back to being "God's Chosen", this looks to me like a step backward. 

We were having decent talks before and then you turned on the "I'm not psychotic" thing and have begun acting weirder. 

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last edit on 3/1/2023 6:39:09 PM
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0 votes RE: I am taking a (permanent ?) break from giving of myself to narc...

You seem to be distancing yourself while declaring yourself the only one to possess knowledge, again. At this point you are even regressing back to being "God's Chosen", this looks to me like a step backward. 

We were having decent talks before and then you turned on the "I'm not psychotic" thing and have begun acting weirder. 

 

I am a shaman....  do you expect me to act like a Kardiashian  🙄🤭  and spirit wants me to share with and empower large groups of people that prayer and affirmations can be very healing especially because there are a lot of false healers out there who would have you buying all sorts of unecessary stuff in order to "break curses" and other ridiculous things  we are spiritual beings and we are allowed to depend on our spirituality and energy and intentions to heal ourselves  rituals and ceremonies can be and often are very beautiful and I believe in making ritual and ceremony a part of your life but it does not have to be expensive and you do not have to rely on the juujuu mushroom from the special sacred forest of wherever to be able to heal

 

 

last edit on 3/1/2023 7:14:52 PM
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I am chosen by spirit to share this message with the world and I have been since birth

 

I mean it is quite obvious that I lack the shame and fear that would prevent most people from doing this,  I just have to be guided on the best way to go about it

 

 

last edit on 3/1/2023 7:18:05 PM
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0 votes RE: I am taking a (permanent ?) break from giving of myself to narc...

You seem to be distancing yourself while declaring yourself the only one to possess knowledge, again. At this point you are even regressing back to being "God's Chosen", this looks to me like a step backward. 

We were having decent talks before and then you turned on the "I'm not psychotic" thing and have begun acting weirder. 

I am a shaman....  do you expect me to act like a Kardiashian  🙄🤭

I didn't suggest anything like that..? 

  and spirit wants me to share with and empower large groups of people that prayer and affirmations can be very healing especially because there are a lot of false healers out there who would have you buying all sorts of unecessary stuff in order to "break curses" and other ridiculous things 

From my experience, the ones who try to say it's quick and easy are the fake healers, if they aren't talking about an Antibiotic or something. 🤷

No one at first wants to hear the real answers are hard and slow, you don't even seem to want to face such a thing. 

we are spiritual beings and we are allowed to depend on our spirituality and energy and intentions to heal ourselves
Even so, how is that meant to happen quickly? 

Every time I see people go on like this they're part of the Chosen Ones community or some shit. 


rituals and ceremonies can be and often are very beautiful and I believe in making ritual and ceremony a part of your life but it does not have to be expensive and you do not have to rely on the juujuu mushroom from the special sacred forest of whatever to be able to heal

Rituals are about whatever you take into it more than the ritual itself. 

Someone like myself who began from a spiritual low point for example couldn't really pull as much out of it until later in life when I'd traveled and met more people, had more conversations. 

I basically had to learn the spiritually neutered reasoning to then explore how others did it with spirituality. 

Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔
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I am chosen by spirit to share this message with the world and I have been since birth

 

I mean it is quite obvious that I lack the shame and fear that would prevent most people from doing this,  I just have to be guided on the best way to go about it

 

 

 

anyway

 

 

last edit on 3/1/2023 7:20:04 PM
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no you're wrong,  fake healers disempower,  genuine healers empower  you are a fake healer,  and I am a genuine healer  spirit is going to have me teach massive amounts of people how to heal themselves

 

 

last edit on 3/1/2023 7:23:19 PM
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0 votes RE: I am taking a (permanent ?) break from giving of myself to narc...

You seem to be distancing yourself while declaring yourself the only one to possess knowledge, again. At this point you are even regressing back to being "God's Chosen", this looks to me like a step backward. 

 I second this, but me agreeing with you probably detracts from the effectiveness of your points since my word is held in low regard in her mind from our negative interactions.

 

shamanqueen said:
 I am a shaman.... do you expect me to act like a Kardiashian 🙄🤭 and spirit wants me to share with and empower large groups of people

 Is there not some tenet of shamanism that preaches humility?  At the very least you should consider that it is more effective to convince people by recognizing them as equals instead of showing that you feel like you are above them for possessing the knowledge they have never been exposed to.  Otherwise, you might risk immediately shutting them down to any productive discourse.

last edit on 3/1/2023 7:26:55 PM
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FOTS said: 

You seem to be distancing yourself while declaring yourself the only one to possess knowledge, again. At this point you are even regressing back to being "God's Chosen", this looks to me like a step backward. 

 I second this, but me agreeing with you probably detracts from the effectiveness of your points since my word is held in low regard in her mind from our negative interactions.

 

shamanqueen said:
 I am a shaman.... do you expect me to act like a Kardiashian 🙄🤭 and spirit wants me to share with and empower large groups of people

 Is there not some tenet of shamanism that preaches humility.  At the very least you should consider that it is more effective to convince people by recognizing them as equals instead of showing that you feel like you are above them for possessing the knowledge they have never been exposed to.  Otherwise, you might risk immediately shutting them down to any productive discourse.

 

yeah I am aware  just because I graduated shamanic initiation does not mean that spirit has finished preparing me to speak about what I have learned  I am not in psychosis anymore,  but like I mentioned yesterday my self esteem is not where it should be yet  I pretty much spent years thinking and feeling that I was a hopeless cause and to be honest I am not even willing to let that go quite yet  it became my identity for so long.  I plan to detach from unhealthy habits and replace with healthy habits and build my confidence and self esteem that way until I am fully ready to let that identity go  but of course spirit will probably wreck my world any day now and be like no fuck that let go of it now soo yeah  pretty much how it goes for me-->   (I am very sensitive to the impacts of what I believe about myself and anything else)

 

 

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