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Is that the requirement for becoming a Shaman? 

healingqueen said: 

and not just an initiate anymore because I healed myself out of my psychosis.  as soon as you heal out of your psychosis you are considered to be a shaman.

 

congratulations to me,  but I still have much to learn.

 

 

 I went on a date with a shaman once. He gave me ayahuasca and I raped him with his didgeridoo lol

Turncoat said: 

Is that the requirement for becoming a Shaman? 

Yes, it is an evidence of being able to figure out how to spiritually self heal  self healing out of psychosis is kind of a big deal spiritually speaking  because as well all know my past psychosis was extreme-  to say the least  it was a challenge given to me by spirit and the first message that they want me to pass along is-  clear your karma in whatever way works for you  mine was done through guided meditation and creating prayers to quickly release and call back soul fragments if there is anything that is still going to be coming to the surface so that I am not stuck in it and thrown off balance

shamanqueen said: 

Turncoat said: 

Is that the requirement for becoming a Shaman? 

Yes, it is an evidence of being able to figure out how to spiritually self heal  self healing out of psychosis is kind of a big deal spiritually speaking  because as well all know my past psychosis was extreme-  to say the least  it was a challenge given to me by spirit and the first message that they want me to pass along is-  clear your karma in whatever way works for you  mine was done through guided meditation and creating prayers to quickly release and call back soul fragments if there is anything that is still going to be coming to the surface so that I am not stuck in it and thrown off balance

I feel like it's a bit early to be calling things evidence, do you not? 

Turncoat said: 

shamanqueen said: 

Turncoat said: 

Is that the requirement for becoming a Shaman? 

Yes, it is an evidence of being able to figure out how to spiritually self heal  self healing out of psychosis is kind of a big deal spiritually speaking  because as well all know my past psychosis was extreme-  to say the least  it was a challenge given to me by spirit and the first message that they want me to pass along is-  clear your karma in whatever way works for you  mine was done through guided meditation and creating prayers to quickly release and call back soul fragments if there is anything that is still going to be coming to the surface so that I am not stuck in it and thrown off balance

I feel like it's a bit early to be calling things evidence, do you not? 

Nah  If I thought that,  I wouldnt have changed my username

my chronic mood swings that I have had for as long as I can remember are gone and I feel peaceful and calm-  the psychosis is thus assuredly defeated

shamanqueen said: 

my chronic mood swings that I have had for as long as I can remember are gone and I feel peaceful and calm-  the psychosis is thus assuredly defeated

 

 

and let's say the psychosis did come back  I now know how to clear karma fast enough that it will not throw my energy off balance-  which is again, psychosis defeated

If I am feeling balanced and calm then I am feeling mentally well.  everyone was trying to tell me that me being balanced would never happen or would take a long time but my intuition knew better which is why I was telling everyone that I was about to come out of psychosis for like a week.

so let's see I healed-  c-ptsd (borderline personality disorder), bipolar II disorder, anxiety, depression, hypomania, schizophrenia, narcissistic personality disorder, antisocial personality disorder, and agoraphobia-  I had some of all of this as part of my psychosis  I still have some obsessive compulsive disorder stuff going on though and lower than should be self esteem

and I told people that clearing their karma would alleviate all of this stuff in themselves and that through guided meditation and prayer(possibly not necessary but recommended and quite helpful) and affirmations it can be done a lot faster than most religions would have you believe soo I contributed to the community  you're welcome

I do think that having a connection with a higher power and praying helps a lot,  but for those who do not want to do that possibly guided meditation and affirmations alone will work

by the way,  I do not mind if any or even all of you doubt me and are skeptical-  because under the influence of being in psychosis I behaved very unreliably and unpredictably and conjured up fantasies to meet my unmet at the time emotional needs  this is all a very real part of my past

but even if you doubt what I am saying,  you cannot negate what I am experiencing which is a very balanced calm version of myself which I could not have even imagined in the past being able to experience and I tried like all of the drugs psychiatric and otherwise to try to feel the way that I do right now and none of the drugs could do it for me

and the drugs cannot do it for anyone not completely,  because what we all really need is deep soul healing

and when I look at this community,  I see people in various forms of distress  and I want to help,  because why not and also because you all had to put up with my many psychotic episodes

this is a new version of myself  the shaman version  (although I had it in me all along but I could not recognize it because I was raised an american christian)  and so far she is a lot more balanced and calm and she wants to help other people not feel distressed too  and I will try to find ways, mostly I have been focusing my prayers on myself and what I wanted,  but now I can pray for what other people in the community might want and need  not the superficial stuff but the deeper stuff