yeah. my moods are stable af now. no past trauma lingering in the background causing my emotions to go up and down. that meditation that my shaman linked me to changed my life (I undid all of the shielding though of course because it was making me feel uncomfortable the next morning lol) but the karmic pattern dissolving and clearing and cleansing yeah this has changed my entire life.
and I might not be "the perfect picture of optimal health", but I am out of psychosis now. so I suppose that this now gives to me the title of "shaman" since I defeated my shamanic psychosis. congrats to me :)🎉
just letting y'all know though it took an intense amount of praying and seeking guidance and understanding and wisdom for me to come out of this though. God / all that is and my prayers are responsible for me coming out of this my final prayers before coming out of my psychosis were asking for God to show me the most efficient and quickest way out of my Inner torment and suffering.
this is the meditation, Steve nobel has a lot of good stuff on his channel