some quotes from some books and articles and people that I like and resonate with
The self divides into ten billion distinct illuminating spirits. Distinguish these without falling into names and classifications. —Hongzhi
https://www.amazon.com/Awaken-Ascension-Mastering-Oneness-Yourself/dp/1737127911
Of course, I did not always feel that way. I have kicked and screamed on my road to Oneness and Ascension as many times as I have sung and danced. Most of the journey has been expansive and exciting, but everyone has to face their demons, and I am no different. While we might intellectually understand that we are light and love and blessed children of Source, we must move through many levels of dogma, subconscious beliefs, and programmed behaviors to fully accept ourselves as the beings of light and love that we are. We have to clear away the layers of lack of forgiveness for what we perceive we have done wrong to know the truth of ourselves as Source in our hearts. Then, we can end the duality of the experiment and ascend into pure light.
https://medium.com/mindfully-speaking/hell-realms-28ba9629cee5
Finally what got me through this illness and out the other side was my deep commitment and trust in the practice of mindfulness which thankfully I had become well practiced in by the time this all broke. I spent most of each day confronting the flashbacks with a small Gatha meditations based on the present moment. Siting meditation was not possible but a few hundred times a day I grounded myself with ‘This moment everything is safe’,’ this moment all is good’, ‘this moment I am loved and wanted even if I find it hard to believe that truth’, and so on. It worked and what happened when the PTSD finally lifted was the most astonishing silence.