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If I felt safe back then I would have been open to both guidance from the spirits and my calling and instead,  I was closed off from my intuition and my higher guidance,  but yet still having to deal with being influenced by lower vibrational entities aka dark entities dark forces and soo on

it just really fucking blows sucks fucking fuck.

PISSED.

Idk for sure if I could have been doing this at 7 or 8 or not but I do not see why not because I have always had massive amounts of spiritual courage  (for example spiritually eating all of the demons and reptilians in an attempt to dominate them)  but I did not know what I was doing and felt lost and confused almost all of the time because of the culture that I was raised in

Okay for real though, who knows everything about Shamanism? 

healingqueen said: 

Idk for sure if I could have been doing this at 7 or 8 or not but I do not see why not because I have always had massive amounts of spiritual courage  (for example spiritually eating all of the demons and reptilians in an attempt to dominate them)  but I did not know what I was doing and felt lost and confused almost all of the time because of the culture that I was raised in

It is possible that having been barred away from Shamanism is why you are taking such an interest in it now. 

If you had been given the option of it as a kid, you may have trivialized it by a point in your life when you could otherwise appreciate it more. 

hi, okay. so i just want to say. i kind of had a somewhat similar experience when entering mental health treatment i got sort of, not frustrated... but whats a word for it ehhh. i got kind of pent up or hung up for a moment on the idea that i needed to understand and know everything in order to heal, and was worried i didn't have what it takes to do so... possibly, missing the parts or, being too flawed in some very deep way to ever achieve any goals in recovery lol 

i quickly got overwhelmed with, how much information there is out there in psychology... and how much of it might be contradicting or matter of opinion. which thing to pick up? which thing to put down. so many modes of therapy to learn about, and trying to understand myself and how the mind worked... from so many different perspectives. it's too much for one person to do, whilst having that much oversight... and self awareness. its expecting a lot. right? 

i felt in the beginning i was relying on, okay. this is science based, this is tested and researched with these explicit recorded results. 

i felt like i had to be the master of psychology in order to heal. lol 

i also felt like i had to reverse engineer my path to wellness perfectly, to avoid any pitfalls or mistakes, or wasted time. this was a matter of efficiency, and a desire to protect oneself... a learned behavior no doubt. 

but, eventually i learned to be more at ease with the process and understood it a little better... and just continued to remind myself when i started to get wound up and anxious about it, to just trust the process, let go a bit, and remember that you can't reverse engineer perfect mental health. 

i was doing all this like mental kung fu trying to protect myself and it was actually making me worse, more anxious, more stressed and unhealthy mentally. so if the goal or priority is improved mental health... don't lose sight of that goal in your methodology or approach, at all times. 

That is not your culture. Call yourself something else. 

Delora said: 

That is not your culture. Call yourself something else. 

shamanism is actually everyone's culture as it was the first form of spirituality of humankind meaning everyone has an ancestral lineage back to shamanism

plus,  it is not really a "cultural" thing not traditionally,  traditionally the spirits choose the shaman initiates from birth and it happens in any culture that the spirits decide to mold and shape initiates from