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My honey is hot and ready to receive.

To be filled and rocked until the star seed

of my longing explodes into every cell of my being.

They told me I’d be done by now, but THIS is my beginning.

The beginning that came after the ending of giving my power to people

and thoughts that were not my own.

I slayed those dragons, cut those cords,

haunted my youth

and all the places I lost myself and went

away

because too much pain was too much pain.

That pain gave birth to me.

I was so brilliant, that little girl who rocked herself

and told stories to keep herself safe.

Oh, my precious baby you were born from the stars

you came to be here on purpose, on time,

but not before you traveled the broken road

that shattered your heart and hard shell

wide open

You see it was all a part of your destiny.

I know it’s so hard to believe

that this was a part of the great

mystery. . .school?

Baby, you can’t be a twinkling starlet in the sky forever.

You can’t make a wish from way out there

and suddenly be delivered into a full,

fulfilling, juicy life

that makes you shout from the inside out

like a holy night of unleashed passion

that keeps you coming and coming with

waves crashin’

No, you can’t have that kind of juice

without being willing to lose. . .control

Without coming to earth and being

rebirthed

through pain, shame, caca and rain

To come out shining in the sun great full.

You see my love, you got to feel the pleasure

and pain to give birth

Embody it all to find your passion and

purpose on earth

And just when you think you think you know it all

Then you’re ripe for the lesson you’ll learn

when you fall

Here you go to surrender again

But now you know sometimes the gift comes when

you’re willing to give up and throw your towel in

Strip down, jump in the river and swim

Look up at the clouds, feel the cool summer breeze

Hear the birds as they chirp and sing in the trees

Soon the sun will set the night sky on fire

Stars will twinkle and wink and fill you with desire

In your boat you’ll then float down a stream into caves

On the canyon walls the story of your life will play

First a dream then a fetus, fingers, toes you’re born

Walking, talking soon your life’s growing corn

One by one scene after scene.

The epic awe filled tale of transformation in me,

Through tears and years you will finally come to see

The shaman heart star you were born to be

So look in the mirror see that masterpiece of life

You’re a fucking goddess You are Divine

Let your longing explode into every cell of your being

They told me I’d be done by now, but THIS is the beginning

 

"This is the Beginning by Shaman Heart"-  Stephanie Urbina Jones