grew up with alcoholic family and became part of the statistic, took me years to undo the patterns. maybe it'll be good to name some benefits and be grateful for my abstinence. let's see how that goes.
some practical benefits of no longer being an alcoholic loser:
- no more dehydrated & greasy skin, protruding belly or acne breakouts
- i beat my social anxiety
- have more predictable sleep patterns
- function better cognitively and hoping that neurogenesis will undo some damage
- don't miss out on social events any more
- no more crushing shame and ocd-fueled compensation behaviour
- no more elaborate logistical planning to ensure i always have a source of happy juice like hiding vodka in ice tea bottles.
- liver repaired from acetaldehyde toxicity now
- normal shits
alcohol stunted my cognitive and emotional development for years and was turning my body into a drooping sack of blubber. since stopping i've been in a catch-up manoeuver to undo or make right the damage it caused and part of that process is labeling things that I'd rather not think about. hopefully I'll come back and add more things
