but I am scared of practicing a shamanistic worldview because of fear of persecution like I do not want to be seen as crazy or ridiculed or seen as like a grown adult playing pretend
Shaman in general get that rap, it's why a lot stick with "their own kind". Some go by other labels too if they get all weird about Nephilim and junk, the labels tend to be the obstacle between groups, even when comparing two different Flat Earthers for example.
I have personally found more value in splashing between multiple groups in the hopes of finding something coherent in between them all. I have been surprised multiple times to find legitimacy in quote unquote "magic" practices through my denaturing goal.
people are so quick to judge without realizing how much pain and torment that I have had to go through to turn towards the ancient methods of healing instead of just dismissing them as stupid and uneducated
A lot don't recognize how much of what people say is the same as other people through a different dictionary of experiences. This is why a lot of Shaman lock onto the word "Intention", and I am on the same page there.
I tend to try to correct things moreso when it is proving to be like a snag in their lives, a difficult knot they can't get undone. I'm otherwise all for trying out new experiences as long as it doesn't become about cults, as sometimes even a "make believe" mindset can set someone onto a better path afterwards, or get them in the habit of good things in spite of not being an entirely world-tethered foundation.
If someone becomes all about Reiki, and as a result they also learn techniques of Physical Therapy for example, then even though Reiki is pretty damn fake it still led to the person in question acquiring a real craft as a supplement, or as adjacent knowledge. The same can be said of Yoga, an art that prior was much more about Faith while now more about the moves themselves.
As such, falling into belief patterns that may read as nonsense or cringe in later life is not wasted time. What really matters is what those beliefs are doing to someone.
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