My eyes water, my right eye leaks more than the other and I get strange complicated feelings of euphoria and sadness. Indescribable feelings and thoughts in my head.
There's been some times in recent history where I've cried, the only reason one was getting stressed out over shit because of a friend, then going to that friend's party, and got really drunk and paranoid, and broke down in tears after some shit happened.
I find it fun but it seems to be some kind of existential dread reaching a boiling point.
It happens 2-3 times a year.
Lol, I shouldn't be surprised that you cry over existential dread. Nothing is mundane with you is it.
I think the last time I cried was publicly in a conference after drinking sake with a bunch of Japanese professors maybe like 5 or 6 years ago, because I felt lonely. It was pretty embarrassing. Some people filmed it and posted it in group chat, and to all their friends. After that incident, I decided not to drink with Japanese people.
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Every once and a while I have a really good cry.
I sit in my office until like 2 am and weep for several hours.
For fun, or for some other reason?
I find it fun but it seems to be some kind of existential dread reaching a boiling point.
It happens 2-3 times a year.
I just kind of sit there at the 2/3rds point unable to push it further in most cases.
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