but the inner toxicity/severe mental illness and fear of this era of troglodytes takes over. Chapo blames women out of his procreative view but I just blame everyone, we are all participates of this logic prism. My ancestors were very aware and sensible neanderthals which makes the current situation harder for my mind. If I was an elite like everyone obviously want to be then I would be doing close to the same as them, but as a slave I have to ignore or denounce it. At least I don't have their level of responsability.
I believe a purer way to die might hopefully still await me. I don't know if I can trust my family to give me a natural burial as someone pointed out and they are very narcissistic around such topics.