When I was 8 my uncle started molesting me. It started off with big hugs and him touching me eventually touching me, he said he was seeing if I was developing normally.
My mom worked in a hospital overnight so a lot of times I spent the night at my uncles house. When he put me to bed there were lots of long hugs and touching. Eventually the touches became much more, he moved on to kissing me *mod edit*, and him reaching down my underwear. I enjoyed it and I guess he knew it as it moved on to more. Eventually he would get under my nightgown and kiss and lick everywhere. This includes everywhere, he eventually moved from my chest down to my vagina, *mod edit* I was shock he would lick me there but it also felt really really good. I didn't want him to stop and I think he knew this because he licked me and I had an orgasm. He could totally tell.
This went on for a few years. Our talking became sexual as he asked me if I knew what a mans body was like, if I ever saw a man's body and stuff like that. Eventually he showed me his body and encourage me to touch it and explore it, he had me touch his penis and balls.
When I got to be about 13 my mom decided she didn't need him to babysit I was old enough to stay home. But I found I missed getting release since I wasn't seeing him regularly anymore like that.
So I invented reasons to go over to his place and we got involved in touching, kissing and licking. I played with his body and he licked my vagina during these visits.
then I stopped getting with my uncle as I got older and had a long term bf in high school.
I married young to a navy guy, we moved a few times. I cheated on him, I'm sorry to say, because he was a "meat and potatoes" kind of guy, he wanted intercourse but he wouldn't lick me to orgasm, which I thought should happen. We eventually divorced, no kids, thank God.
I because promiscuous after that,and never got married again, but always had a man in my life. I don't know why I turned out this way but I can't seem to stay with anybody long term. But if I'm not with somebody I get lonely and "horny" and want to find a man to be with.
I feel like I missed something somehow because I just can't stay with a guy or have him fall in love with me or be a happy couple for the long term. I tend to get with a guy for about 3 months then move on but I can't just stay home and be alone, I need a man in my life always.
I feel like somehow I could be happy if I found the right man but now at age 40 wonder if i ran out of time.
Last edited by Snaga on Tue Mar 14, 2017 7:56 am, edited 1 time in total.
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