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I can't relate to any interest in bestality, or cp as I find that shit to be purely fucking degenerate, but I willing to confess my sins of having jerked off both snuff porn, and the actual dead, as well as imagined rape and torture. I'm not against the idea that I am awful for what I did, I feel shame over it, and the porn and hentai can definitely introduce you to weird ass shit. 

The biggest fantasy I'd often masturbate to and still slip up sometimes, as I've been reducing my intake of pornography is mind control, like hypnotizing people into being sex slaves. It started when I was I believe 11 or 12 through like hypnosis manips on devianart of various celebrities or just drawn art. 

I'd rather find a partner that I can roleplay this stuff with, and still have a great and healthy relationship with than indulge in pornography. 

Chaotik said: 

I can't relate to any interest in bestality, or cp as I find that shit to be purely fucking degenerate, but I willing to confess my sins of having jerked off both snuff porn, and the actual dead, as well as imagined rape and torture. I'm not against the idea that I am awful for what I did, I feel shame over it, and the porn and hentai can definitely introduce you to weird ass shit. 

The biggest fantasy I'd often masturbate to and still slip up sometimes, as I've been reducing my intake of pornography is mind control, like hypnotizing people into being sex slaves. It started when I was I believe 11 or 12 through like hypnosis manips on devianart of various celebrities or just drawn art. 

I'd rather find a partner that I can roleplay this stuff with, and still have a great and healthy relationship with than indulge in pornography. 

 I think it's just the porn addiction. The normal stuff just doesn't work anymore and you seek an extreme because it's the only thing left. Hope you don't get used to that extreme though, maybe you'll want the real thing next. I'm convinced this is how atleast some of the pedophiles/animal lovers/rapists are made, they just find that stuff and keep going back to it

Retard123 said: 

Chaotik said: 

I can't relate to any interest in bestality, or cp as I find that shit to be purely fucking degenerate, but I willing to confess my sins of having jerked off both snuff porn, and the actual dead, as well as imagined rape and torture. I'm not against the idea that I am awful for what I did, I feel shame over it, and the porn and hentai can definitely introduce you to weird ass shit. 

The biggest fantasy I'd often masturbate to and still slip up sometimes, as I've been reducing my intake of pornography is mind control, like hypnotizing people into being sex slaves. It started when I was I believe 11 or 12 through like hypnosis manips on devianart of various celebrities or just drawn art. 

I'd rather find a partner that I can roleplay this stuff with, and still have a great and healthy relationship with than indulge in pornography. 

 I think it's just the porn addiction. The normal stuff just doesn't work anymore and you seek an extreme because it's the only thing left. Hope you don't get used to that extreme though, maybe you'll want the real thing next. I'm convinced this is how atleast some of the pedophiles/animal lovers/rapists are made, they just find that stuff and keep going back to it

There is porn that tries to pair this with hypnotic suggestion to make people more into feet and dick. Porn's pretty weird. 

That said it's clear that Chaotik is into Mind Control over feeling like he has no control over other people everywhere else in his life. The Bedroom is often an outlet for areas not fulfilled in life, and in his case it appears to be over a desired lack of autonomy for his partner, meaning their free will has not served him well enough in the past. 

You are probably like me and are overly-sensitive to dopamine, or otherwise not able to handle it like a normal person. I've been running up the same hill, forever, with porn, or drugs, or sex or otherwise risky behavior. I would consider the addictive personality a mutant just as much as someone with ADHD or autism. If you're chasing porn like that, you probably have slot machine brain.

Tryptamine said: 

You are probably like me and are overly-sensitive to dopamine, or otherwise not able to handle it like a normal person. I've been running up the same hill, forever, with porn, or drugs, or sex or otherwise risky behavior. I would consider the addictive personality a mutant just as much as someone with ADHD or autism. If you're chasing porn like that, you probably have slot machine brain.

Have you ever tried fetishizing the withdrawal? 

Turncoat said: 

Retard123 said: 

Chaotik said: 

I can't relate to any interest in bestality, or cp as I find that shit to be purely fucking degenerate, but I willing to confess my sins of having jerked off both snuff porn, and the actual dead, as well as imagined rape and torture. I'm not against the idea that I am awful for what I did, I feel shame over it, and the porn and hentai can definitely introduce you to weird ass shit. 

The biggest fantasy I'd often masturbate to and still slip up sometimes, as I've been reducing my intake of pornography is mind control, like hypnotizing people into being sex slaves. It started when I was I believe 11 or 12 through like hypnosis manips on devianart of various celebrities or just drawn art. 

I'd rather find a partner that I can roleplay this stuff with, and still have a great and healthy relationship with than indulge in pornography. 

 I think it's just the porn addiction. The normal stuff just doesn't work anymore and you seek an extreme because it's the only thing left. Hope you don't get used to that extreme though, maybe you'll want the real thing next. I'm convinced this is how atleast some of the pedophiles/animal lovers/rapists are made, they just find that stuff and keep going back to it

There is porn that tries to pair this with hypnotic suggestion to make people more into feet and dick. Porn's pretty weird. 

That said it's clear that Chaotik is into Mind Control over feeling like he has no control over other people everywhere else in his life. The Bedroom is often an outlet for areas not fulfilled in life, and in his case it appears to be over a desired lack of autonomy for his partner, meaning their free will has not served him well enough in the past. 

 I'd like to think with a partner, I wouldn't actually be controlling towards them, and that it would only manifest in the bedroom. I do desire control I guess, and I am the head of my friend group and they often joke as me as a brutal tyrant with delusions of grandeur with our retarded shit we come up with. I'm hoping that if I move out and I'm able to master my own destiny without my family constantly shoving their shit down my throat and up my ass that I could be more stable and happy, but I know that probably won't be the case either. 

Retard123 said: 

Turncoat said: 

What has it made you do? 

 Made me curious and wank off to some messed up shit. Real rape porn, bestiality,CP. I'm not a pedo, I'm not attracted to children, animals, or into rape but I don't know why I watched these things. The rape and animal stuff, although I felt disgusted with myself, I could handle, but the cp, that had me messed up for months. I don't know why I looked for cp, I know I'm not attracted to children so why did I do it? Being horny distorts my mind, I hate it. I need to get a partner to vent my sexual frustration on because porn isn't healthy for me and turns me into a monster. The CP made me want to kill myself 

 How is your mental health in general?