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We are going to have a meat pie, stuffing, cranberry sauce, and possibly mulled spiced OJ. I'm going to decorate the mantle and living room with fresh pine boughs and candles (not too close to each other.)

We will light a fire in the fireplace and be warm and merry and reflect on our blessings for the year.

Is anyone else celebrating tonight?

PalePeach said: 

 

Is anyone else celebrating tonight?

Nope, only celebration's the 25th and the family's been increasingly less festive each year. We stopped getting a tree and everything, there's basically just an Elf on the Shelf and a string of lights at the fireplace. 

The turkey that was being saved for my mother and I's combo-birthday's going to Christmas instead, we both got impatient over it, and there will be a casual gift exchange but a lot of it will just feel like a normal day with maybe a Christmas special or some Jazz music on in the background. 

I'll probably do what I did last year and binge a bunch of Christmas specials. 

I want to go to my childhood church this year. They bring a life donkey in there and do the Christmas play with Jesus birth etc. After that it will be the same as every year: too much to eat, tensions, a Christmas tree, giving presents etc. In Germany presents are given on Christmas Eve on the 24th. We call it Bescherung. Before that this year my father will make Rolladen which is meat and inside of it is another type of meat (bacon). Much sauce and Knödel. 

On Christmas Eve where I am from we don't say Santa clause comes, we say the Christ child (Christkind) comes and brings the presents which is a female child with blonde long curly hair.

You people and your edgy alternative festivities. You do realise it's all a front, right? How you're distracting yourself with pointless accessories in the delusion that anything will do to fill your existential dread. Yet when it comes to shit suddenly that's too far and exotic for your cowardly pretentious wannabe cultist yankee ass. 

Xadem said: 

You people and your edgy alternative festivities. You do realise it's all a front, right? How you're distracting yourself with pointless accessories in the delusion that anything will do to fill your existential dread. Yet when it comes to shit suddenly that's too far and exotic for your cowardly pretentious wannabe cultist yankee ass. 

 t. Santa 

Xadem said: 

You people and your edgy alternative festivities. You do realise it's all a front, right? How you're distracting yourself with pointless accessories in the delusion that anything will do to fill your existential dread. Yet when it comes to shit suddenly that's too far and exotic for your cowardly pretentious wannabe cultist yankee ass. 

 Hello Xadem how are you today. Do you need a hug?

Xadem said: 

You people and your edgy alternative festivities. You do realise it's all a front, right? How you're distracting yourself with pointless accessories in the delusion that anything will do to fill your existential dread. Yet when it comes to shit suddenly that's too far and exotic for your cowardly pretentious wannabe cultist yankee ass. 

 STFU

I was just about to come over here and thank Peach for reminding me to stop rubbernecking the war bc Yule with an empty belly and no money is SO NOT a good time for new Cold War nightmares and other stuff that makes me cry.

Gods it's like the end of Carrie, where she thinks the nightmare is over, but just keeps getting sucked back into it and grabbed by Death. Over and over. Fucking Cold War shit just won't go away.

Fuck you Xadem.

Stop reminding me about my existential dread.

I will now go calmly into the kitchen and find my oatmeal and my last apple. Then I will make my last coffee with the grains at the bottom of the jar. I will do my best to celebrate by adding my last breakfast shake to it, to make it taste like cocoa.

3 more of those, 2 vanilla.

A full pack of smokes, half a bag each of oatmeal and brown sugar and milk.

Lots of teabags.

So my oatmeal will last till Friday.

After that I will be going out to panhandle.

Hopefully I can convince potential donors that my tumor is a baby belly.

Or should I just tell them I'm sick?

If that doesn't work, I will be living on a liquid diet until my tax return comes in.

Hopefully things will turn around for me by Xmas.

My tax return will be in by mid January.

3 weeks of living on protein shakes...