you basically vacillate between needing a place where you can express your innermost thoughts, and disliking the negative feedback you get. after too much negative feedback, or people acting like they "get you" too much, you peace out for a while. i think you wish people would be more compassionate toward you (which i actually have been trying to do), but at the same time you do some wild shit. you are saying that celebrities are obsessed with you and lurking the forum, and it's patently insane, but you aren't wanting to hear any of it. ironically people do care, i am watching threads of the simping nonstop. but you have to meet people somewhere in the middle
yeah but I do not feel the need to express my innermost thoughts on this forum anymore because I have learned the beautiful skill of validating myself and I feel like a new person I never used to be able to do this before and it has completely changed my life, and I am also done with the fantasy celebrity relationships thing because idk just lost interest in it I suppose and it started feeling very stupid and silly to me
and I do not want a schizophrenic "psychology guru" who professes to have overcome schizophrenia and mental illness and yet still loves with his parents and collects ssi for having schizophrenia and refuses to try to get a job with his psychology degree (if he even has one and anyway it is just a piece of paper if he cannot even maintain employment using it) and seems to have no ambition in life but instead strives to try to bring everyone down and convince everyone to also have no ambition in life and adopt a pessimistic nihilistic outlook on life which I am not interested in trying to contrarion every single thing that I post and constantly falsely accusing me of stuff and essentially slandering while simultaneously trying to force tie me to my past and not allow me to grow and evolve and change my professed ideals and values without being called a "liar" instead of just accepting and being respectful what I believe and value in the present moment, nor do I need some buddhist "nice guy" dude who does not seem to be passionate about anything try to force me to see things from his perspective when I find that person to be soo boring and bland that I try to avoid reading much of his content at all and would prefer him to not comment on my threads and posts (and I have proof in pms that this person was flirting with me while I maintained that I felt uncomfortable with it but he continued to try to be controlling of me and pressure me into it and I feel highly uncomfortable and violated by that person)
but yeah if these two people stopped stalking and harassing everything that I post (just like I have stopped stalking and harassing controversial social media influencers) then I would consider maybe posting occasionally but I am soo put off by those two stalking and harassing me that it does not even feel worth it to post on this forum anymore because I do not find either of their comments helpful or beneficial whatsoever
everyone else on the forum (besides cx3 who is like constantly pessimistic and rude) do not annoy me as much
