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this is like my last thread here for a while but I suppose this is my apology for any retaliating that I have done against any of you in the past-  and that I retaliated from a place of wanting ya'll to understand that psychological and verbal abuse sucks and that I will give it back because I do not really know a better way of not encouraging abuse because not retaliating against it in my life personally has always seemed to escalate people behaving abusively towards myself

I do not know a better way yet,  but I do leave past relationships that are psychologically and verbal abusive to an extent of feeling too toxic to want to be around and not seeming to be improving towards becoming less psychologically and emotionally abusive and not a positive and inspiring enough presence in my life and stop paying attention to or even remembering those people except occasionally after I have moved on

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and while I am at it,  I apologize to all of my ex love interests including ex boyfriends and soo on as well as close friends and family members and acquaintances too all people everyone for all of the ways that I retaliatory attacked their egos through psychological and emotional abuse and I want them to know that I did it from a place of not wanting to encourage psychological and verbal abuse because I do not see psychological and verbal abuse as being good for humanity but being a doormat or a codependent or a "do no harm wiccaan" or a buddhist who does not care about anything at all or a Jesus type scapegoat figure or the type of personality that is traditionally thought of as a "pacifist"-  none of these strategies seem to work for discouraging psychological and emotional abuse and soo I did what I could to discourage in the ways that I saw were actually effective at discouraging it and unfortunately in the world that we live in it seems to be mostly through retaliation,  but there are other ways too it is just that I have had to do retaliation soo often that I,  fuck   it just causes me to feel sad Idk  anyway this is my apology whether people know that I am apologizing or not I am still apologizing and I might do some in person apologies eventually if I am able to find better methods of discouraging psychological and verbal abuse towards myself and towards other people soo that we can all live in a more loving and peaceful world

I mean essentially I have this Inner passion to be a catalyst for change-  and I do not see the buddhist type figures that just pretty much stop caring about anything and distance themselves psychologically and emotionally from humanity as being a catalyst for humanity as a whole to change the ways that we interact soo psychologically and verbally abusive with each other in the mainstream,  I mean this psychological and emotional abuse stuff is prevalent in the mainstream and sitting around meditating and detaching from it all for your whole life is not going to change or improve anything and neither is being an enabler who just does nothing and says to themselves  "well this is just the way that things are",  like you are not standing up against the horrible abusive ways the people treat each other in the mainstream of society and behind closed doors and that super goes against my Internal passions and drive and against my values  Ignoring the problems with how the majority of humanity psychologically and verbally abuse each other and interact with each other in horrible ways on a regular basis soo much so that it is considered "normal and standard"  is not fucking enough

anyway,  this is just something that I am obviously very passionate about and probably my last thread on this forum for a while

Is it because you hurt so much it turns to anger?