the best way to explain about the seemingly manic psychosis that I went through thing is that one part of myself was rebelling against my Inner critic because my Inner critic had been majorly triggered by a past relationship and was almost killing me- and soo this other protective part of me blew up my Inner critic as dramatically as possible and externalitized it outwards (basically that I was everything bad in the world because I started believing this as a child as some children do unfortunately and it was never corrected until this year) soo that I could consciously see what was going on and interact with it and realize how insane it was and essentially a joke because in reality I am a compassionate sweet caring empathetic person with good intentions
