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^  this is like my worst nightmare honestly,  ik that she will still love me but I do not want her to be disappointed in me for all of the insane things that I wrote on here when I was joking around

she knows about the lilith thing and that I was just joking around about it,  but I still feel scared because I joked around about other insane stuff on here too

but she and everyone who knows me well Irl all know that I am a compassionate sweet insightful intelligent sensitive introverted woman who does not get into much trouble,  but they do not know about the insane stuff that I joke around about on the internet sometimes

Aren't you a little old to be using the title "Mommy" instead of "Mom" or "Mother"? 

This also explains why you are pretending to be making this up, again, for like the fifth time or whatever. 

Turncoat said: 

Aren't you a little old to be using the title "Mommy" instead of "Mom" or "Mother"? 

This also explains why you are pretending to be making this up, again, for like the fifth time or whatever. 

no I just feel like my sense of humor that came out with the fake identity that I created for this forum was inappropriate in some ways and I do not want her to be offended if she ever was to find out about it-  and I take responsibility for creating the fake identity and joking around with it,  but I do not take responsibility for being the fake identity because I am just well,  not

it is very much a fake identity and I could prove that to any psychiatrist or therapist lmao

the best way to explain about the seemingly manic psychosis that I went through thing is that one part of myself was rebelling against my Inner critic because my Inner critic had been majorly triggered by a past relationship and was almost killing me-  and soo this other protective part of me blew up my Inner critic as dramatically as possible and externalitized it outwards  (basically that I was everything bad in the world because I started believing this as a child as some children do unfortunately and it was never corrected until this year)  soo that I could consciously see what was going on and interact with it and realize how insane it was and essentially a joke because in reality I am a compassionate sweet caring empathetic person with good intentions

I confess that pretty much I do not want to associate any of my Irl with this forum soo I lied about this account being a fake persona because I was trying to distance myself from this forum  I feel kind of bad about lying but I am trying to do what is best for myself you know ?  I do not like intentionally lying though

Lucky for you you're a terrible liar. 

When you try, all you tell us is why you'd feel the need to. 

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