sometimes the me that grew up in a religiously abusive household wants to be naked and free (I was not naked I was wearing a thong but still) in front of the entire world, but then the part of me that values self respect is like yeah but like what about your self respect ? soo it is like this conflicting struggle within me that I still have not really resolved and I still need to heal some religious trauma probably
I desire to be a good influence but sometimes I make stupid decisions