and for the most part I really love and am grateful for my life the way that it is right now because it could be soo much worse, and in a lot of ways it is a lot better than it used to be my anxiety and inner torment and suffering levels are down and that is the most amazing blessing that I could really ask for :) I would like a significant other to share my life with in the future but only if they meet my standards for the type of person that would add to my positive feelings and enjoyment of life enough to be worth anything that they might take away in the form of fighting or ways that they might disappoint me and soo on