(Turncoat is not allowed to gaslight or invalidate in this thread and will not be responded to as this is a sensitive topic for me) Yes, my last Irl ex boyfriend did try to kill me multiple times actually and maybe even more times that I am not aware of, he is the type of borderline that actually tries to physically hurt and even kill people (I am not, I have never been in a physical fight with anyone and have never drawn blood or bruised anyone and I mean like ever, ever not even accidentally- I know that some people might find this hard to believe since I have a tendency to say violent things online when triggered that is actually very opposite my Irl nature (which does cause some sort of emotional relief for me, but I am not saying that this behavior is not something I would not like to have more control over, but I also have oh let's see nothing on my criminal record except for minor accidental traffic violations caused by anxiety exacerbating my adhd to back this up)
soo yeah this anger is overwhelming me rn and I really want to release it, but Idk how I am scared to talk to my IFS counselor that she will judge me so I want to figure out how to release it on my own and I guess that I could sit down and just try talking to my anger, asking why it is there and stuff, and just be really calm and curious and compassionate with it and validate it and accept it and see what happens and if it transforms and releases ? (I say transform because energy cannot be created or destroyed, only transformed)
