you seem concerned that this person has higher standards than they probably do, and you would probably wow them more just by loving yourself the way that you are because it will free up your energy to be playful and fun and flirty instead of concerned about what the person thinks about how you look physically and how you "measure up" to what is physically attractive to that person
and if the person really does have such high standards that you are feeling this self conscious then maybe their standards are not right for you and the person in general is not right for you ?
What the duck is wrong with me.
I relate a lot to that. I refrain from trying to get into relationships, because I believe there's a lot I need to work on, and there's a girl I love but refuse to try to make any moves on. I simply exist to help her when she needs help, and I check on her to make sure she's doing alright. I fear entering a relationship with her would somehow harm her because I guess a lot of fears about who I am, and plus I hate how I look at the moment, and I desire being fit, and I've been trying to hang out with people more and more so that I can fit in, and make memories so that I can be more interesting I suppose.
