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and also,  why did skfg start spazzing at me after I stopped paying attention to that obscure youtuber michelle mjajjajalak as much,  and also he was spazzing about pming that had stopped weeks ago  instead of spazzing at me while I was actually in the middle of my obsession ?

like why attack me when I am calmer and less of an offender of doing whatever you were spazzing at me for ?  It is almost like he misses my obsession for whatever reason or something

why does he seem to miss my obsession if I am soo "bad and evil and toxic" ?  I do not understand

thanks for reminding me to apply for a job again

compassionatequeen said:

Am I evil and bad and toxic ?

Who doesn't at least have some elements of those things? 

Turncoat said: 

compassionatequeen said:

Am I evil and bad and toxic ?

Who doesn't at least have some elements of those things? 

Stop stalking her.

compassionatequeen said: 

because I have social anxiety and because I am unemployed since I get panic attacks working normal people jobs ? 

No good, while 'good' happens to be the opposite of bad.

also because in the past I have done some trolling and I say silly and ridiculous things that sometimes I do not mean soo it is a form of lying I guess although my intention is more to be silly than trying to con people or anything like that ?

It's easy to assume you're asking for feedback, because you don't want to accept the feedback you've already received.

for some reason part of me feels like I am "evil",  and these reasons mentioned above are what come up most for me

 Time and time again, evil had it's way with you. Even when you were Bible thumping.

from the shadow work book that I am reading

Striving to be only a good person is the opposite of striving for oneness and wholeness. Firstly you will not be able to be whole because you are denying intrinsic aspects of yourself and secondly you will be unable to achieve oneness because if you deny your own dark side you will be vehemently opposed to the dark side of anyone you encounter which will lead you straight into the ego’s game of judgement and condemnation.

 

^  true,  in my opinion this is the truth

Nobody can ever be pure good or pure ‘evil’ (as some might put it). In fact, when it comes to experience there is no right or wrong. There is merely experience.

There are consequences for deeds us humans as a collective would deem as ‘wrong’ in this world. But believe me when I say that the prison of pain and anger that causes someone to perpetrate certain ‘bad’ deeds and the guilt and internal suffering that follow these deeds is worse than any man made prison on Earth.

Mandela once wisely said: “As I walked out the door toward the gate that would lead to my freedom, I knew if I didn't leave my bitterness and hatred behind, I'd still be in prison.”

There are many labels in this reality of right and wrong, but as spiritual beings let us not forget that there is no right and no wrong.

There is however light and dark energy within us.

Within all of us lies subconscious or unconscious energy and conscious energy. The one cannot exist without the other.

Within the dark, or subconscious, energy lies energy that is of a low, dense frequency which is our purpose to transmute into light energy.

We must remember to refrain from judging the energy as it is merely energy, heavy energy or light energy, low frequency energy or high frequency energy.

Once we begin to label parts of ourselves as ‘good’ and parts of ourselves as ‘bad’ we create a dangerous rift inside of our beings that further causes the growth of the shadow in the subconscious.

When we label ourselves as mentioned we create the belief within our subconscious minds that we are broken and unlovable and that we are not perfect just as we are.

The truth is that we are perfection just as we are.

We carry light and dark within us and the one cannot exist without the other.

 

^  more truth

Why do we call it a shadow?

We all carry pain inside of us that follows us like a shadow. Think about how the sun creates a shadow behind you when it shines on you.

So think of the sun as your true self, your God aspect, your higher self, pure love....

This love is always shining on you, and as long as you are in this reality it will cast a shadow.

There will always be pain in this reality as it is designed to be a dualistic experience and that is why we came here, there is nowhere else in the universe where we can experience this duality. However, this pain can be transmuted and we can take control of it instead of it controlling us.

The good news is that we can heal this shadow. You can never get rid of this shadow, you will always be light and dark, but you can integrate the shadow into the light.

Dark and light is just the term we give to energy: negative and positive, painful and joyful.

Everything in this universe is energy and science will teach you that energy cannot be created or destroyed yet it can be transformed from one type of energy to another.

Energy is frequency which is named as such because of the frequency at which particles vibrate and oscillate.

The speed at which these particles vibrate create concentrations of particles appearing as matter and sound.

The higher the frequency the lighter the energy and the lower the frequency the heavier the energy.

 

^  more truth  I wonder what frequency the average of my energy throughout the day over a course of a month is hmm,  but we are always evolving and going through new phases in our life and that can affect our vibration

 LOL

If you find someone annoying. Maybe stay away from them, or else you'll burn with countless others they urk, while nothing happens to the annoying one who left a path of destruction.

Some say there is no right or wrong, but in the end, it's the minds who'll decide, and shame will still be a thing.