I feel like shit I cannot stop crying, I am not like angry at men or anything because I did this to myself out of being scared actually the only good thing that came out of it is that my heart chakra opened and I am not angry at men anymore I used to be and you would think that I would be pissed to find out that Jesus is a lie but no I feel relieved and I actually cherish life and my freedom now umm, maybe I did learn some respect for men like I do not really like to admit it but they are not stupid like I used to think