I believe in loving other people unconditionally and trying to love myself unconditionally
and forgiving people and forgiving myself
that is all I can really believe in but I hope that this is enough to keep me going
(without believing in Jesus or a religion because I just cannot anymore because of too many contradictions)
Christianity turned me into an angry and bitter person, but unconditionally loving and forgiving other people and myself does not make me feel angry and bitter I probably have plenty of reasons to because people can be so mean when you are different from them and not as mentally well and functional as they are but I am just going to keep loving and forgiving so whatever ends up happening to me as a result however it transforms me as a person then so be it
It is kind of scaring me to unconditionally love and forgive people especially when I do not have a belief system demanding it from me I feel like it is not going to save me but it is better than being angry at people for not acting the way I would prefer them to towards me and in general it is not like I know what is best for anyone
I believe in loving other people unconditionally and trying to love myself unconditionally
and forgiving people and forgiving myself
that is all I can really believe in but I hope that this is enough to keep me going
I don't expect it'll be too hard to challenge your faith when you lash your tongue so easily.
Christianity turned me into an angry and bitter person,
So has every other path you've taken, you are the common denominator between every faith you've practiced.
Before you stopped practicing Witchcraft you were into it for being able to do all kinds of retribution, this temper of yours is inherent to who you are rather than what life you've practiced thus far.
but unconditionally loving and forgiving other people and myself does not make me feel angry and bitter
You have extreme ups and downs, and you always externalize your room to appreciate things as if it were their fault rather than the fault of your own perceptions.
Your mood swings are a part of you, they will be something you will be contending with no matter what faith you prescribe to. With demons like yours I'd probably become a monk or something.
